Lena
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Post by Lena » Fri Oct 27, 2006 12:46 pm
Friday and it's going to be a right busy day . We work a huge party tonite , I'm on with 2 other bartenders .Hope there both men , I don't feel like wearing a dress and will be happy to be one of the boys . :
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More ahead about the world and moi . It's pouring here and the building is still cold . The crew comes today to take out the asbestos around the old boiler and tomorrow the boiler guys come into put in the brand new $ 10,000 boiler that I wil soon be working a third job to help pay off . :x Oh well thats life .My gf left for her lab while the cats who are annoyed by the cold are curled up on our bed with the hyper Agatha actually under the covers . Watching her I can understand how in ancient Egypt they thought cats were holy , she sure can be full of herself with a huge sense of entitlement . :
:My period is almost over thank goodnes and I can return to the ranks of the emotionaly stable .This mornings coffee is a little bitter , maybe we got a defective can or we should not buy any more FOLGERS brand .
Everyone here is talking about the congressional elections in 2 weeks . The peole's unhappiness about the disater in Iraq is said to have the republicans alL scared of losing alot of races .To help head it off little georgey was on tv the other day trying to head that off. I didn't understand what he said & don't think he convinced too many either . Basically he said we're winning but have to do better and Iraq has to meet something he called "milestones " for our help . So it was the same old same old . Then the Secretary of Defense is on two days later saying Iraq doesn't have to meet specific "milestones " to get help .So nothings changed , were still there for a open ended war with no end in sight . More double talk from the one time town
of Crawford Texas .From what they say on tv the Iraqis are already in a civil war so why should we be there anyway ?
Moi ,moi, moi ..................my favorite subject . :
: But that just makes me like everyone else on the planet . :roll: :
: Yesterday did pick up my friend a wedding oresent , Corvah likes antiques so I got the a old looking dark wood side table for hallways .Be great for a lamp and putting the mail on . On sale too so it was a gift for stingy me too
Then went to the analyst which was intense . For about 20 minutes we talked about Leslie and her wanting to be a good mom but her still loving the wild woman life style .My friend likes partying too much and doesn't want to grow up at all. There's really nothing I can do other then tell her they don't go together and seeing how it really bothers me she'd sneak off to party when having her son acting no dam better then our selfish mothers .I'd hate to lose Leslie as a friend but am seeing how being the party girl is everything to her for all practical purposes more then being a mom .I do hope she is better today .
The rest of the time was spent on my fatalism . In a nutshell goes back to my dad telling me when I was around 6 that everything was too hard for me so trusting him I more or less gave up then .Everything starting with school seemed like a huge mountain I could never climb . It was all reinforced by his dissing of anything /everything I did , steady ridicule of me , and outbursts of violence .I can remember feeling dead inside at 6-7. So believing I was doomed never tried . Adding to it all was a mom who only cared about herself and could get violent herself . Along with never ending trouble in the family from my folks always fighting , my sisters having troubles , and being poor.
It all made me not only fatalistic but as I see now also too scared to think and feel . For most of my life I have mainly reacted to things rather then given them any thought , being very impulsive and also always nervouse since I never tryed figuring out what was in front of me except for how to get atention or a date . The only exceptions have been saving money the last few years ( but I am terrible now since so much money goes intot he apartment :oops: ) and keeping my gf..I didn't think since I couldn't really bare to facewhat I saw as feeling doomed and seeing all the rotten things happening around me .More or less lived moment to moment , basically reacting to things in a pretty crazy world both in terms of my family and the slum we moved to when I was 13. Not thinking made me pretty hyper and nervous . Did try to grab pleasure when I could though and acted out with what was a lot of anger inside about it all. Here meaning sex , too early and too much , substance abuse ,and stealing . In the end making me my own worst enemy or even executioner .
All along there were little & big signs I wasn't doomed and especially not awful . Signs I should change my way of thinking but I couldn't digest them .I get depressed when I think of them but am so desperate to overcome this fatalism I now try to see them as stars that pointed in the right direction .Starting with as a little girl back when we stayed in the Pine Mountains I 'd stare for hours at the hills and creek thinking how pretty they were that gave me hope .As mean as some of the kids could be and as homesick as I'd get for the mountains loved it when my mom marreid a soldier and we lived in North Carolina and Georgia . Nice seing new places and meeting differnet kinds of people .Army life is sure distinct and while it can be horrible it's also a real education too
. The best of all as hard as it seems to be considering the jungle we stayed in washer with the Simms family . They were the first family I ever saw where the parents were married , the dad had a job and had never been inside the jailhouse or joint , took care of the kids , and worked for the future .Being around them was always nice and for some reason as wild as we were and being white they liked me and cousin Francie . Even forgiving us after the time the auntie found usat 15 naked in the shower with Damian whow as 18 :oops: Mrs . Simms is also the only person I ever thanked for hitting me , slapped me a few times for smoking & swearing in there house at 16. Tough love and it worked in a way . Never really have sworn much after that .
Meeting my gf was a miracle , she was so perfect for me and I'm proud I did not ruin that .
Did actually think about how to avoid troubles that ruined past relationships and the need to always work at this one .
Now have to try to forget what my family especially my father put in me and concentrate on being me . Can't be thinking I am doomed and have to learn how to not be scared to just to think and see or what the analyst calls " cognition ".She mentioned something caled cognitive therapy I;m reading up on before I leave this morning and we'l talk about next week .
Today am custody monitor again and as I wrote do hope Leslie is better . Talking the analyst's advice to think about things if she does pull anymore stunts like the other week I wil tell her I don't like and I guess be ready to put the friendship on hold till she realizes you can't put partying and the guys ahead of being a mom .Am in a lite grey crew neck sweat shirt , white T shirt , jeans, and sneakers at work the penguin suit , black socks , and orthies.
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Post by Lena » Sat Oct 28, 2006 1:22 pm
Hi , We're to busy now for me to get up a post . I will do it in about 6 hours or so when I am at work in the empty bar .
It'll include the latest on my friend Leslie who I saw yesterday , some dirt ( :
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Post by Lena » Sat Oct 28, 2006 8:06 pm
Finnally had a chance to post .Although I gave some thought not to seeing how in a little over 24 hours over 200 hits have been made here.
Maybe some time later I will hold off for a few days and see how many views we get ? In my dreams see that so many people miss me there wud be mabe 8 pages of WHERE'S LENA ? Just like the 8 pages of post that were put up once by the bradgelina cultists calling for everything from my banning to beheading after I trolled in that section . :
: We had to get out early today .Wore a T shirt and jeans , and clear plastic flats with a pointed toe .
Not much going on at work today . Am wearing the penguin suit and orthies .The bar is empty which means no tips and boredom . I've heard at some hotel bars back east where unions are allowed bartenders are paid extra to make up for lost tips during periods when there's no business. I'm all for that but down here it will never happen , the laws against you . The boredoom can get depressing too but at least I can go on.line and have fun like now .Ramon from security dropped by to talk for awhile which was nice then about a hour after he left the metrosexual and completely incompetant Mr . Stallworth whose Personnel Director who is MOD today came in to pretend he knew what was going on( fat chance ) and also to pretend he cares about all the employees ( :
: ) then left to glad hand some big shots staying here. . I work a wedding in 2 hours and that will be more fun and will make some money .
Yesterday did see my friend Leslie to be custody monitor .Les and I are cool again ( more with her then me ) , she's "forgiven " me for getting mad at her abut the incident at the 4th Street Mall .Les and I were opposites agin : me kind of dykey in a sweat shirt , T shirt ,and jeans but Les being gorgeous in a new black leather outfit that had a hip length jacket with a zip up front and flared slacks along with black stilletos .Along with what she said was a cashmere Red turtleneck and wide gold chain . Naturally her hair and make-up were fantastic . We had a good enough time , took Grady to a exhibit for kids at one of the museums which Grady loved since it was about dinosaurs ( Les doesn't like museums much , thinks there for wierdos :roll: Give her a fancy bar any day . :
: ) and had lunch at a famous diner . We both thought it was strange / funny since it was all so wholesome being there in the middle of the day with baby Grady (there were other toddlers there too, it may be full of bar flys at 4am but during the day the diner is yuppie city ) since all the other times we've been there before together it's been just before dawn after a nite of intense partying and were also usually
and /or high
.Times change ............... :
: May see her later tonite I learned , she may bring her bf Mark to a party at a gay bar we'l probably be at . I guess he wants to see dykes at a halloween party and she's going to be his passport . p***s people and lesbianism , will the fascination never end ? :roll:
Things may be back to normal with Les on the surface but they really aren't underneath . I still do love her and wud do anything for her but this whole thing with being custody monitor has gotten me down . Do like helping out and will continue but it's been a bummer since I have seen a bad side to my best friend . She really is mainly concerned with having fun and being beautiful more then parenting or for that matter getting ahead in life. .It all came home yesterday since she was bragging about pretty much non-stop sex having 2 full time bf's and all the money they spend on her . She asked my opinion about treating Mark to a threesome as a special thank you for the tennis bracelet he brought back for her from back east. I told her she's sure been busy in that area ,having just had one with her other bf BE and she really thought that was hysterical . Asked if I thought she should ask the girl was the third party named Wendy Kay in that one to also join her and with Mark . All I could do was glare at her in shock . She innocently asked me why my mouth was open and I told her that what if Wendy Kay lets it slip she also f u c k e d with Les and another guy ? And believe me those things do come out in the heat of passion and Les has enough experience in that activity to know it's true too . What wud Mark say since neither BE or Mark know Les is seeing the other and think they are her sole bf . Brought up how Mark wud probably drop her and no more good times and expensive dinners/presents which did get her worying and also that he might get hurt by her cheating which I am sad to say didn't bother Leslie at all. :cry: Les looked a little confused and said she'd have to think about that . I bet she will too.................. :roll:
I only hope she doesn't ask any of the strippers & waitresses from work there opinion.Partly since there choice in men is so bad they'd say go for it saying how the guys wuldn't be bothered or be real turned on by the idea of sleeping with 2 women who have slept with another man . Or since so many are connivers they wud encourage her to do it so Mark wud find out about BE then drop Leslie & they could move in on Mark for the bank . :roll:
The disappointment with Les as a mom though doesn't compare to the sadness I feel for baby Grady . The little guy isn't even 4 years old and already he's been hurt by his folks divorce and is still caught between them .Along with worst of all having the 2 people who are supposed to care about him the most being completely caught up in themselves .I do hope he survies it all. His daddy may have money but is a complete asshole all concerned with his macho ego .When we pulled up at his converted farm house Bill or " country bull" as he wants to be called ( it's southern , the nick name is really bragging about how he may at 57 getting on in years but is still real manly ) was out in the lite rain chopping up firewood like he was in a one those tv ads for viagara. Then to one-up Les told he Grady about how "pa" is going to get him his own pony .All the time smiling right at Les who he knows can't afford presents like that .As we were leaving Bill's current gf whose in her third trimester with his baby came out and without even saying hello & walked past me and Leslie and real mean like ignored baby Grady who said " Hi Nancy " telling Bill how she'll be home late since she's in court all day and then completely ignoring saying good -bye to us and even baby Grady who is almost her her step-son after climbed into her Range Rover Land Cruiser and drove off .As Nancy drove off we saw on the back a real obnoxious custom bumper sticker that read SUPER LAWYER +SUPER MOM = SUPERWOMAN ...............she's not even a mom yet !
It was good we were so busy at work last nite since it all could have had me in a big depression . :roll: It's a dangerous place /situation when moi is the nicest person around .........................
I have to go work the wedding soon . A I mentioned were going to several halloween partys tonite . Karin is going as MADELINE which is great while I am feeling a little wild so am going in a makeshift body stocking .I do love exposing myself and that is going to be a big part of tonite's fun .
Along with ofcourse talking and drinking and drinking some more :
: .Got a pair of sheer nude footless pantyhose on top and regular sheer nude pantyhose below . Am changing here at work .When I leave at 11pm or 2300 will put a pancho on over me to make sure I am not fired for indecency and don't give the 66 year old security guy at the employee entrance a stroke .............. :
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Post by Lena » Sun Oct 29, 2006 1:56 pm
Sunday morning and like too many in the past I woke up with a terrible hangover feeling like crap :cry: All since we partyed and drank ( especially drank ) too much last nite . :oops: I guess this is the price of sin .
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: My headcahe is fading but I still feel half dead with no energy, hopefully the 3 cups of coffee I've had will perk me up . Where's the blow when you really do need energy ? Karin is still sleeping , my beloved was so
when we got home at 4am she didn't completely undress and still has a knee sock on from her MADELINE costume ........... :
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Basically the penguin suit and I worked the bar then a small wedding , only 70 people .Wasn't even in the Grande Ballroom where the ones I work usually are but one off the two smaller ones . Nothing really stood out , the bride was 30ish and had a nice ( the bodice had a pearl lining ) and the groom around 40. Both getting hitched for the first time .No kids either . There were two other weddings going on at the same time . Rafeal who is great and wierd Norm working a huge 200 person plus one in the Grande Balllroom , Rafael and I exchanging sarcastic smiles at what a low motivated guy wierd Norm is . Rafael can handle 3 customers in the time it takes wierd Norms to do just one customer :
: With half white American -half Korean Cassady ( looking like a movie star in the black cocktail waitress dress but I couldn't understand how her feet and legs could survive in the very sexxy and exotic black pumps she was wearing ) helped by a part -timer named Charlie who used to be a county sheriff. Our boss and my friend Brendan was overseeing everything since the Banquets manager Louie is sick . Do love Brendan , he knows this business backwards and forwards and always trys to be fair . The banquet captain Gulliermo who I can have trouble with was well-behaved too , no trying to boss me and Cassady around ( he never gets ahead of himself with the male bartenders only the women , maybe bossing around women is something he brought from south America when he snuck into my counry illegally :x )
I clocked out at 11:15pm and headed to the locker room to change into my make-shift Halloween costume . By now I was getting more and more excited wanting to get away from the hotel and to the fun at the party as fast as I could . Standing there naked as a jay bird In first put the nude footles pantyhose on top ( BTW pantyhose make a great bra :
: ) then the other pair of regular pantyhose below . While pulling up one leg my friend Rosalind whose a front desk manager and very responsible came in and sort of surpised/shocked blurted out " What are you doing ? " And while I laffed replying that we were going to a party she just shook her head and said " No don't tell me , I don't want to know " rolling her eyes like it was to wierd to believe with us both laffing . She was heading home dead tired . Putting on the clear plastic flts and my long poncho I darted out the employee entrance ( the security Vic was to preoccuppied with something he was watching on a minature tv to notice anything , a real lazy guy ) to find Karin waiting already in her MADELINE costume sans the huge
which always responsible her said was to big to wear when driving . There's another diference between us : her being so caught up with driver safety she wouldn't wear the
while I have driven in the past while
and under the influence of all sorts of controlled substances . Ofcourse Karin's never been put in the jailhouse for
driving but then again has never known the sense of adventure of despite being
/doped up out of your mind making it home without wrapping your car around a tree , having a head-on or getting arrested by the police .................:
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:All jokes aside she is the one who is right .
The bar was packed with all sorts of people mostly women since it is after all a dyke place but with many men .The interesting thing was that about 25-35 % of everyone there was straight . Maybe some were bi-curious and some others heard the well-known secret that Halloween partys at gay bars are great fun . Sort of like watching the Gay Pride Day parade is fro hetrosexuals .It doesn't bother me , some gays get upset seing this asa invasion of our teritory but to me it's just people having fun so whats wrong with that ? Along with a good way to promote sexual liberation , am sure going to partys at gay bars does help open up some people's minds and for other even help in the coming out proces which for many can be very hard .Besides everyone needs a little decadence in there life . All work and no play you know ............. :
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Smoke and noise filled the air. We were immediatly caught up in the fun starting with hitting the bar to start drinking on at the bar drinking away . I think I polished of two merlots in under a minute while Karin was working on bloody Mary ( I sued to have a regular customer a yuppette who wud come in every nite and have about 6 Bloody Marys ) right off seing a few people we know . Including Meg a nurse from my gf's hospital an her partner Avrah . We exchanged pecks and all laffed about what a fun time the party was .Meg was in her regular nurse's outfit while Avrah was Little Boo Peep complete with a long cane to get the sheep . :
: After awhile a very very ( and I do mean very !! :
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Corrine and Margo came by in there costumes as a wedding couple , Corrine being the guy in a tuxedo complete with a fake mustache while Margo was the bride in a huge old fashioned wedding dress( you could park my car under the skirt ) she said came from a thrift shop . Funny about who wud be who since while Corrine was the man she's very femme and Margo as the bride was ironic since she is a andro . We liked seeing them but thought they went a little too far in the friendliness department , when we kissed Corrine turned it into a full fledged make-out session & also grabbed away at one of my brests while Karin says Margo stuck her tongue so far down her throat it was like having a tracheotomy done .Oh well they were
and it was halloween .................... :
:Had some fun posing for photos with some heavy set women who were leather girls . In one in my make-shift body stocking I am sitting on the lap of a one looking very aroused complete with one foot on the table with her hands under my brests :
: . In another I am kneeling on the same woman's lap facing her looking as if I am about to ravage her. :
: Hope they send me copys ! We were also in a few pictures taken by the bar . Also saw and the throughly self centered and humorless Stacy who always does all the talking and lisitening to her is the first woman in history to both move out of her mom's home and come out of the closet . It gets even more annoying when anyone else brings up there own experiences and she disses them saying how what she did was even more dramatic and took more courage . :roll: Also ran into Cortney who I love . She used to be a cocktail waitress at the hotel and got canned for a "bad atitiude " since she wa very open with her ideas often telling the male bosses off. Anyway she just had her baby last month ( a boy named Reginald ) and also a new gf who we met named Jaynette whose sort of dark and mysterious .We aso talked to 2 straight couples in there early 30's who were real nice and definitely into the fun .
One of the women admired my costume saying she'd never have enough courage to bare it all in public . Looking down at my almost completely flat chest I said " I only wish there was more to bare " and we all laffed away . They were pretty cool too , one of the guys was dressed as cowboy and the other was in his old mail man uniform . The women, a curvy red head was in a pink cami top and matching pink g-string while her friend who talked to me was tall with long brown hair in a black lace bustier with attached black stockings.
The crowd was great for people watching since the costumes could really be something special . As you could expect there were alot of DRACULAS , MRS.MUNSTER, FRANKENSTEIN , BRIDE OF FRANKENSTEINS , MUMMYS & , WEREWOLVES . Being a sapphoist bar there were also the expected witches .I think my favorites of all were a gay pink WEREWOLF who had a aids ribbon on and a woman dressed as a man in a suit complete with shoe polish to make it look like she/he needed a shave with a huge strap on p***s sticking out . :
: Karin though really liked this woman in a 1950's car hop uniform complete with a tray but sans undies . :
: Most though had sexual oriented costumes .Many of the women being in teddys or camis with either g strings or thongs , stretch lace underwear was also very popular with women and a few of the gay guys :
: Some costumes were creepy though Did see a woman dressed like me with a pantyhose top and another pair on the bottom . What was creepy about her was that being chunky with short thick brown hair and eyebrows she reminded me of my ex Marady ( :x :x :x :x :x :x :x ) along with the real scarey guy in leather hood and body suit sort of drifting around by himself maybe up to finding someone to torture or something like that .
We danced and drank then drank some more . At one point I was dancing with one of the straight guys we had ben talking to . I know this sounds awful but I was half -way hoping he wud pull me against him so I could ride on his gizmo which is something I have always liked doing with men . :
: But since my gf and his wife were dancing next to us that was impossible . :x :
: All for the best really , meeting and f uc k i n g strangers was a factor in the break-up with Marady. Also danced with a real nice gay guy I now named Clell who to laffed teling me he had seen my outfit on someone earlier that nite at another gay bar but it was on a guy who was some huge wrestler type . :
: The bar had so many people it was very hot and Karin got uncomfortable in the coat from her MADELINE costume so she took it off spending the rest of the nite with only the
, her undies , and knee socks on . Seeing her topless had me peel off ( my chest was by then covered with sweat ) the pantyhose ony chest going topless for the rest of the nite myself .We weren't the only ones topless , the number rose as the night went on . Including several straight women to the delite of there husbands/bf's . :
: I must say that rubbing two sweaty bodys together is sexxy in both bed and on the
floor .......................... :
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We booked at closing with all the other drunken party animals .Karin was able to find her MADELINE coat and put it on but I couldn't find my see -thru top so I just put the poncho on over me . You'd think after all that we'd had enough fun but like with drinking and most of the time sex when I get going I really have a hard time stopping . :
:Onthe way hoe at a intersection I tok of the poncho and flashed my brest then my ass at the car next to us , the 70'ish black guy in it lit up like a neon sign . :
: Not far from our place we saw a bunch of college type guys leaving a party and Karin slowed down long enough for me to flash them and as I rubbed my hands over my titties telling them in my pretend hysterical French accent how I want them all to service me and to be rough.The guys were howling with one even asking me to marry him then to there frustration Karin drove off. :
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We're both paying now for our adventure in decadence ! Karin is sleeping and probably won't even wake up till afternoon . :
: I have to go to work at my pt job though so despite feeling wretched am struggling to get out . In a white ribbed turtleneck , very short distressed jean mini , nude pantyhose, and brown flats with a pointy toe . At work there cheery white blouse and Kelly green jumper. Think later we meet our friend lonnie and Cindy for dinner ...................
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Post by Lena » Mon Oct 30, 2006 2:04 pm
The rest of America may be going back to work but it's the start of my week-end , yippeee !!! Should be a nice day here too, not exactly Indian summer but should be real comfortable in the 70's . I already went running and it was cooler but already pretty nice out .
Yesterday did go out in the white turtle neck and distressed denim mini . At the country club wore there chery uniform too . My job at the country club is pretty routine .I work the big sunday brunch thats a institution ( gets a crowd since I've heard sunday is usually the cooks day off and you can easily see several generations of familys there ) going from table to table pouring champagne and smiling along with making maybe 5 mixed drinks and getting the occasional beer. Like all the weddings I work at the hotel the the shifts are beginning to blur into one big one since it's always the same . :
: The rich people are all pretty nice , make it a point to get along with my co-workers too . I t's a nice place :has beautiful grounds with all kinds of pretty bushes and flowers ,a 18 hole golf course, 10 tennis courts ,an Olympic size pool ( it's huge ) , steam room and sauna ,hot tubs & a jacuzzi , a bar , and a full service restaurent .The rich people pay something like $ 50,000 or $ 75,000 to join and maybe 10,000 -$7,000 a year after that in dues .They can really relax there as you can tell and also be among there own kind avoiding little people like the rest of us.. :
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It can be a interesting look at a world I wudn't know anything about otherwise. Most of the members are ofcourse white and I guess mostly Republicans . Saw alot of BUSH FOR PRESIDENT stickers on the Benz's , Lexues, Jaguars , and expensive SUV's in the parkling lot . :roll: :
: They all seem to dress the same in traditional clothes like my second hand clothes in the MARILYN KING COLLECTION . Bet most of 'em come from familys that have always had money too . Sometimes I wonder if any of them have ever done a day's work with there hands or known what it's like not to be able to afford anything you want this side of a huge ocean going yacht or castle .Oh well............ :
: Like I wrote there all usually nice , no one's ever treated me bad .Most having a that real easy going friendly southern gentry attitude . Nicer to then some of the rich people worshippers and wanna -be snobs who I work with there too ! Then again there are some black menbers who I don't think were born with a silver spoon in there mouth . There usually more formal but thats OK . The blacks seem to be treated like part of the gang especaiily if they are friendly. Theres also a waitress about 26 too from China and going to law school who they all love , it reminds me of cocktail waitress Magdalana at the hotel who management worships . May Ling is very smart and beautiful and I know they'll be be lining up to help her out when she's done with schooling and I 'd bet everything we own she'll be a member there more sooner then later . :
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After finishing I came home to met Karin (who slept till noon owing to too much alcohol the nite before :
: ) who'd been at her folks . Coming in ran into Steve & Delores along with BE and Leslie and another couple who were going out . It was kind of funny , Les and I knowing each other so long and having seen each other with a what seems like a million lovers and there she's with a friend of our neighbor . :
: Although believe you me I haven't forgotten how BE said I was a hooker . :twisted: As they headed out to the cars going to a big ox roast Les mentioned she and BE had stopped by the halloween party we'd been at the nite before but couldn't find us . I was confused since I thought she was spending saturday with the other guy Mark and then got suddenly happy we missed them.
Can you imagine what a locker room gossip like BE wud have told all his cop buddys including our neighbors if he had seen Karin and I topless ?
At home waiting moi played with the cats ( they miss us when we're gone which is real cute ) and here. Then Karin came home , goodnes there. Her dad just had a check -up and it looked good . He's putting on weight and has more energy all the time
. Her baby sister Diane jr. is seperated again(
) from her over-grown mean little boy husand Matt which is good too.
Matts the kind of guy who'll always cheat and beat so unless she's a masochist there's no point in staying with him/it .Diane jr. definitely needs someone new. We then met Lonnie and Cindy along with another couple named Deanna and Sue . Had India Indian food , the first time in my life I've had chutney and it wasn't half bad .Lonnie whose eating for two being preggars had more food then any two of us combined ! Karin was still dog tired from the night before so we me home at 10pm and hit the hay .
Karin's at school now but later we head across the river to Yankeestan or Indiana . Kentucky is part of the south and Indiana is part of the north even though Louisvile includes a part of Indiana . Being from Louisville there's no big difference to Karin but coming from the east part of the state I do think there's a difference after you cross the river . We're going over to a Indiana university in New Albany right across the river where there having a huge flea market of stuff from all over the world .Be nice just to look .Also we'll take old state roads north of the town and back home to see the leaves changing colors .
I'm in a black dress with a red , pink , and yellow floral design over it . Also bare -legged with the usual leather band and flats with a pointy toe . Wearing a blue jean jacket too . Should be fun today .
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Post by Lena » Tue Oct 31, 2006 2:16 pm
Over 200 visitors to this thread yesterday !!!! Thank you all!!!
I have today off and it's halloween but tonite will not be walking around in a makeshift body stocking at a gay bar like saturday displaying my wares along with getting a passionate kiss and getting felt up by a friend as well as also rubbing what my gf calls her " holiest of holys " when we were slow dancing but being real American and wholesome . Namely helping my neighbors here hand out candy to the trick or treaters coming by . I know it's a big switch but were all complicated human beings especially when it comes to real serious things like how to have a good time on halloween . :
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I posted about it in MEMBERS but yesterday was great fun . Unlike saturday it didn't involve exhibitionsim ( although at one point I gave it some thought , more ahead :
: ) or public displays of lesbianism but I guess what you can call discovery .Our little maybe 3 hour trip across the river to Indiana to first go to a craft fair then a drive to see the leaves changing turned into over a 8 hour trip deep into the state . We saw it as a gift from Love itself since it was so much fun being together and made us closer. Also the weather being so good I at least saw the day as a gift from Mother Nature to me .Except for going into and out of a diner I was able to get in a unexpected day of freedom going barefoot .
My gf said I looked pretty cool in the black dress with the floral prints and jean jacket , I did too .
Last week my period had me feeling so bloated and agitated really wasn't in the mood to dress up or dress for fun . Now I do and loved it yesterday .
The craft fair was at a university in New Albany Indiana , just across the river and while part of a whole other state New Albany infact really is dominated by Louisville .The craft fair was so -so . All stuff from poor countrys in Africa, Asia, and south America .Mostly cute things , saw alot of wicker baskets and wood bowls . All kinds of sandals which one well meaning but corny middle aged guy said I should buy since I had no shoes on :roll: . Hah hah hah ,he meant well at least and almost any attention is good attention .
. Some anti-globalization protestors were there to handing out pamphlets attacking STARBUCKS coffee boutiques for cheating famers in what they pay . Thats typical , STRABUCKS coffee shops are over -priced so they also cheat the customers and the coffee they actually serve always tastes the same no matter what kind you order .Still good places to chill and people watch .We were there for about a hour and left with a terra cotta pot for plants from Guatamala and a red metal napkin holder from Haiti , desigend like a bus complete with drawings of the passengers and luggage . Hope we made someone's life betterwith the huge $20 we spent .................. :roll:
We'd planned to take a old state road and not the interstate ( national expresways ) a hour or so north to see the beautiful trees and bushes changing colors but went way over .Everything was so beautiful we didn't want to turn back and kept going and going .Laffing we wouldn't stop till we hit the Great Lakes or had no more money for gas . :
: .Only a few weeks ago the trees and bushes were still green but now were gorgeous yellow, orange, and red colors .The mix of the changing colors and the rivers/lakes/ creeks we came across was extra gorgeous . Nature really has a beauty & goodness to it . Really a site to see and a great arguement for living in this part of America. After a little over a hour we were in farm country where there were still trees along the road and off to the distance but the land was covered by barren wheat , corn , and soy fields . May sound flat and boring but really wasn't . Felt like sailing across water as we sped across it .
There were plenty of billboards along the roads that were intersesting in there own way . Saw plenty of signs for farm equipmnet since this is a big farming area . Mostly the famous JOHN DEERE farm equipment company but also tractors & combines from China and even Russia ............? Insurance agents and gun shops too .Have to protect yourself in all sorts of ways I guess. :
: Car dealers galore , especially selling pick up trucks since there real popular in those parts .Showing how powerful the in.ternet is all had www addresses. Even something called ZEKES WELL DRILLING . :
: Also plenty of fruit stands where the dirt farmers sold what they grew or made . Things like tomatos , corn , and potatos that all seemed about double the size what you find at the grocery store .Along with homemade bread and pies & apple cider . The farmers being right friendly too . Don't know how they got there but at this one stand we stopped at there was a huge foreign moslem family complete with the women with scarves over there heads buying alot . The farmer and his wife being right friendly to them and I hope doing so not just to make money . That was nice to see considering how we're always being told moslems are all like terrorists .
The only creepy thing on the road was the hunters . One group was blasting away with shot guns at something right across the road we were on as if they didn't care about the safety of the people in cars . If I have said it once I have said it a thousand times that while many Americans are gun nuts maybe 1 in 10 of all gun nuts cares/knows anything about gun safety . :roll:
Although it's part of the north that part of Indiana seemed more like the deep south .Things move a little slow like in the heart of Dixie there too. Like down there most of the towns had maybe 2 stop lights and almost always old 2 story buildings . Like the deep south too from listening to radio the biggest things were high school sports and religion .We also saw many pick-up trucks with gun racks behind the driver and quite a few men in either ball hats or cowboy hats .Most radio was C&W too .Then again it could also be alot like urban America . About every woman was in capri or 3/4 length pants , all kinds of people were chatting a way on there cell phones , and we saw plenty of computer stores . Black hip hop culture seemed real popular with the young people .That had me laffing since there white country farm kids wud have NO idea about the world that spawned Hip Hop at all. Still the clothes and music were everywhere. We both laffed listening to Lil' Kim as we drove past farm after farm ............... :
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Met /saw some interesting characters too . :
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: Nice though , noticed we were strangers an tryed to make us feel to home .Some state polices and county cops came in and smiled ( typical horn dog cops ! :
: ) but instead of flirting with us were soon caught up in talk about the world of cops in the corn belt :roll: :
: . The local rich guys came in too ,they were brothers. Turns out they owned the JOHN DEERE dealership , a car lot , all sorts of land ,and even bank .Believe you me they were as southern as grits and corn bread .The oldest one was about 65 , short and chubby with a goatee. Didn't seem too friendly or have much of a sense of humor but instead real serious . He was driving a huge new Hummer but in a old beat up cowboy
and cheap looking dark brown polyester suit . His brother was even shorter and younger maybe 45-50 in a huge cowboy
,shiney lite blue blazer and tie with a HULA Girl on it . He was driving a colossal new pick-up truck with extra large tires .That guy was real friendly and said hello to us even asking where we're from
.He knew Louisville pretty good too and had even once stayed at the MARRIOTT where I used to work . My favorites though were a tie between a a boy about 18 too deep into Hip Hop for his own good ( had the hood of his sweatshirt over his head on a warm day trying to walk like the gangster in the old SUPERFLY movie . :
or these two 20 something truckers we met at a truck stop on the way home named Buck and Junior . They were kind of cute and real friendly, from Arkansas on a run to Chicago . Seeing me there getting coffee at the self serve Buck just came up and said how he hasn't seen a woman in a dress under 60 in weeks and I was a "purtyer then that Money Lisa over to France ".His buddy noding all the time .Laffing I stuck out one of my now filthy bare feet and said something like " Hope these don't take any of that away " and they both laffed . The attention was nice and they looked like good guys and moi being moi I did give a seconds thought to pulling up my dress to show him my white bikini briefs, for some reason I thought he'd like it :
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Did though see some disturbing stuff that may not say to much good about the future of America. More proof illegal aliens fom mexico are taking over my country . Bloomington Indiana is thousands of miles from the border but we picked up a mexican radio station from there and also saw billboards in spainish for mexican stores there. :cry: Also went thru one little town with almost all the storefronts boarded up only to find a huge WAL-MART just outside of town . Guess the cheaper prices offered by WAl-mart kiled all the family businesses.............. :x Turning store owners into lowly paid clerks . :x :x :x :x
We got home pretty late & dead tired .Karin slept in then went to her dentist . My lower back and booty hurt from sitting too much in the car . Still it was all worth it , love travel and seeing new things/people.
Have today off and am going to help Marie and Belinda with the trick or treaters later. Am in a white T shirt and jeans ..................
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Post by Lena » Wed Nov 01, 2006 2:28 pm
Wednsday and back to work . Blaaah ! Then again do need the money . My car insurance is do in 2 weeks and like I have been writing /whining about we have to come up with $1,300 for the new boiler . :x We work the bar then a private party tonite then back to the bar for the remainder the shift .. Thats a good combo , working partys is a nice break from the bar , the tips are good , and usually you don't have to worry about collecting money and making change since there's either a ticket lady or the drinks are comped .Going back to the bar after working one is usually fun too ,I feel freer ( people can watch you real close/too close at those partys ) and more in control since the bartender is the one person that makes the bar happen .
We really liked our trip up to Indiana on monday and are still talking about it . Just sort of a extemporaneous ( new word for moi :
: ) adventure done on a moment's notice that turned out to be great . Indiana may not be the most glamorous state around ( just like Ohio nearby :roll: ) but there were some interesting things to see. Just being out on the road was fun , you feel so free being away from daily life with all it's responsibiletys and problems and can be yourself .My gf really had a good time and seems re-invigorated
. I'm especially happy my 7 year old Toyota made it with no trouble .
I know I'm being catty but in a e-mail a friend here reminded me Indiana is where a female troll who was once here ( think she was banned for swearing at a moderator in a post or starting a series of hate threads aimed at Asians ) lives and we should have stopped by to say hello or called her to meet up with us half-way . From looking at the map we were maybe just a short 4 hours from where she stayed which is nothing in terms of driving time here in America. Fat chance though , have had my fill of loonies .!! In my reply I laffed at the idea about hooking up with that doughball but did say I kept my eyes out for her: from her pictures a average looking 40'ish woman who always claimed to be a hottie and 30 along with being a expert on relationships , a sex goddess , and a actual gunfighter . :
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Karin worked last nite so I stayed home and loved it . Helped Marie and Belinda pass out candy to the trick or treaters . We had about 25 , some even teen-agers . That was strange , don't think kids should be rushed into adulthood but goinga round at 16 dressed like Snow White or Darth Vadar seems a little immature . Actually I wud have done if there had been trick or treating in my old neighborhood ( never happend since seeing someone with a mask outside wud have had the people too scared to open the door since they wud have thought it was a robber and in that part of town little kids were known to pull stick-ups too ) it but not in a costume then later probably wud have gone sport f u c k i n g . :roll: :
: Our neighbor Steve and his gf Delores showed up and were extra nice to me . Guess they still feel guilty about treating me like a skank .It still bothers me a little too , who likes being treated like dirt by people who you thought were your friends ? But do feel I'm getting over it
. Don't want to feud with them at all . Still am enough of a narcissist to think how I maybe could use there guilt to get something for myself though ..................... :
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: I invited Marie back in to our place and served her up some tea and made a fire . She's really a wonderful woman , about 72 she says .Like Vera here one of my heroines
. Was a teacher and married to a lawyer for 35 years till he passed 4 years ago .Has three kids and 6 grand kids who she worships .
Still real active with her church and friends from a seniors center .
I woke up feeling pretty good this morning and was definitely in the mood for that ! As I started to do things to Karin with my mouth and hands she smiled and purred letting me be very very creative . :
: Then noticing how she was already late Karin broke into a panic saying she had to get up and out . Hee hee, like I said I'm a narcissist and wanted my fun so I just kept being very friendly to her :
: There was a fundamnental disconnect between my Bleet''s crys about needing to get moving and the way her legs moved apart when my tongue and I went down to do some " special cleansing ".............have to stop , don't want to be banned ! Do plan on calling her later and ask Karin to wait up for me tonite .
It's pouring rain outside and very dark . So since moi is now a fire place addict I just made one and it looks beautiful . I'd planned on wearing a mini today , it'd be even more perfect after this mornings sexual adventure ( :
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Post by Lena » Thu Nov 02, 2006 1:30 pm
It' s cold here , like winter, now below freezing . Seems impossible that on monday I was walking around outside only in a jean jacket and barefoot . Although I hate having to come up with $1,300 to help pay for the new boiler do love the fact we have heat .
As a kid sometimes we didn't have heat ( think it had something to do with my mom not paying the power bills so she'd have more money for the bars and clothes :x ) and see being warm as a nescesity and in it's own way a luxury . The cats love it too , there both sleeping on top of the heat vents on the floor .
Worked in the penguin suit last nite .Good to get back after 3 days of, thats almost a eternity in this business.All sorts of storys with people in one way or another leaving : they fired a builidng engineer for carrying around a pistol since he's going thru a divorce and is scared his wife's people will try killing him and also this mexican who washes dishes for doing something disgusting in the men's locker room . :roll: A bunch of new people too ,which is common cause turnover is so big . Before they started filling the staff up with foreign contract workers the average hourly employee like moi worked here for something like just 61 days . A scandel too , a corporate exec's goofy dope fiend - it's all about me 21 year daughter ( they tried putting her in the bar but my boss headed that off , phew !! ) is working here now as the ass't director of Housekeeping and is having a pretty stormy affair with a waiter .The Housekeeping director walked in on them copulating in her office on the desk no less then a few days later the securitys had to stop a big screaming match between them . I am sure more to come here....... :
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The hotel is almost at capacity with all these business travelers and also with many people from all over north America here for Kentucky Fried Chicken whose world hq is maybe 15 minutes away . For awhile the gorgeous Cassady and I worked a corporate function for 300 people .Then it was back to the bar which was real busy most of the nite My cocktail waitresses were Siobhan whose always good to work with along with the evil and manipulative Noreen . :
: Hee hee Noreen 's work visa is coming to a end so she 's been trying to find a American to marry so she can stay on and found this army guy 4 years younger ( she's 22 , he's 18 ) whose as green as lettuce. Noreen was bragging to some of the other Irish girls she'll have it made with his army pay and also extra combat pay since she's been encouraging the poor dope to volunteer for fighting in Iraq or Afganistan & will be able to have her fun including looking for another American with serious bank . Naturally we're all disgusted with her . The Irish girls being real embaressed by one of there own being such a ' ho and the Americans seeing this as a foreigners sleazy way to stay here and take one of us for a ride. Even the immigrants like my partner Rafael and Nyugen from Viet Nam are all patriotic about this one, cussing out he " dam foreigner" . Well as fate wud have it the army requires e p's like her Gomer to have there c o's permission to marry mostly based on the soldier's chaplin's recomendation . Turns out Tyree's (yes thats the soldier's real name , think he's from the back woods of Mississippi where it's still 1950 ) is some type of fudamentalist and they usually hate the Catholics like the Irish are so that probably made his chaplin against the marriage from the git go :
: .But acording to a real angry Noreen this chaplin was asking questions about her joining up with there church ( telling her the are the true faith and the Catholic church is evil & alsoasking alot about her visa maybe smelling a rat here. . :idea: and is real wary . They have to see him later to convince him to grant approval . Noreen was swearing a blue streak about having to bow to priests back to Ireland and now to a fundamentalist minister here :
: . Do hope the preacher says no ...................If I didn't think he'd try to convert me laying alot of hell fire and brimstone on me I'd even rat out Noreen's awful plan to use the soldier. :
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See the analyst today and am thinking about what to say now .As gut wrenching as it can be we've been making alot of progress latey . I should leave a emotionally exhausted but better person at the end . Am going to see if she can she me a second time each week . This is like a knife fight for survival and I don't want to lose . :x
It's cold out but I am in such a good mood want to look nice and head out in something other then jeans . So am in a lite grey wool turtleneck sweater , black mini , and suntan support pantyhose ( too many knicks from shaving this morning and they have to be covered up :oops: ) along with black boots with a 3" heel . Outside my warm old motor cycle jacket ( in a act of colossal teen-age stupidity at 16 my cousin and I stole two of them from some mama's in a cycle gang at a diner , could have gotten us really beaten badly :roll: ) .Tonite will work a big party for the football game the whole town is talking about . Am going to see if I can wear the old cocktail waitress uniform of the gold vest , white nehru shirt , red bow tie and black faux leather mini .The guys there will like it and tip more. If they won't let me will wear part of the front desk clerk uniform , the blouse with the red , black , and blue stripes & navy blue skirt .
Note : They let me wear the old cocktail waitress uniform ................
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Post by Lena » Fri Nov 03, 2006 2:42 pm
Over 200 hits here yesterday ! Thanks to all of you !! Also a special hello to all my friends there on Gerard street in beautiful Wigan . Do you guys have any nicknames for this thread , like "The Ramblings of a Mad American " or " The Harlot Today !! " ? :
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It's ice cold here being below freezing and to everyone's anger the brand new $ 10,000 boiler isn't working . :x I'm annoyed to but what can you do ? Although 15 people live here for some reason only Marie and I are around now ( all the rats deserted the ice box ) to let in the Boiler guys and at 72 Marie is to old to be in this here frosty temperature so I talked her into leaving . She's really a good soldier, wanted to stay to help everyone get back the heat . I'm here with the cats ( who are mad as hell about the cold and curled up on a blanket on the floor in the sun to keep warm ) dressed in a winter jacket , old wool sweater , long sleeve T shirt , jeans , dark pantyhose , black socks and now my boots .I only wished I still owned a pair of long underwear . Really do look ridiculous for being indoors but don't want to freeze .Also feel very cold ,as if I'm a frozen food dinner . I know this sounds awful but it was funny seeing my gf take a shower this morning .We didn't know the heat wasn't working and when she got undressed to get in the shower she was shivering and complaining then really screaming when she stepped from the hot shower out into the cold . Don't think I have ever seen anyone go so fast from being buck nekkid to being dressed and out the door . Almost as fast as lightening really . :
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The analyst was intense yesterday . Again saw how my whole life has been dominated and messed up by believing my father when he told me I was doomed to fail , my idiot self-destructive family with there me-first attitude and anger , and not giving any thought to things beyond my immediate wants and needs but mostly wants . Pretty bad with me wanting to be different but not knowing how to be and being too scared to try since I thought I wud fail at anything I tried . We talked about how I always wanted my folks just to tell me they loved me and I could do well. Looking back that was impossible , they being so screwy and self-destructive they could never do something like that . So it all comes back to the here and now and what am I going to do about it .I have to be my own salvation ,
A tall order but thats the way it is .It gets scarey thinking about it . But like my boss says " It's a march or die world " !
Naomi ( the analyst's name ) then brought up cognative therapy again as a treatment that I can do myself .It's where people can deal with things like fatalism by looking back and getting self-confidence and encouragement from the things they have done that have worked out .Basically if was if I did that and it worked I can figure out a way to do this and it wil probably work . It was really like a bright lite shining on me showing me the way out . I see her again monday and we'll really get into that then .
Work was real busy .University of Louisville played West Virginia in football in a big game involving the national championship for college ball ( some New Yorkers were laffing & calling it the hillbilly bowl but stopped when they began to get dirty looks form the locals and othr southerners :
and the bar was spacked with p***s people . The crowd staying till almost closing . We did great busines , so did Room Service that kept up bring munchies for all the hungry sports fans .With me had had cocktail waitresess Noreen ( still red hot angry owing to her problems with the chaplin , really enraged how he's standing in the way of her wedding scam and plans to ship her hubby off to get shot at so she can spend his combat pay :roll: :
: & I must say hearing American swear words said in a Irish accent is very funny ) and Mary Francis whose real nice , only 21 and I didn't know it till last nite has a daughter and bf back in Ireland . . Despite the New Yorkers being obnoxious early on and this being a high testoserone event mixing sports and alcohol things went real smooth
. No shouting matches or brawls like there have been other times .My only problem was being stiffed by this one warhead ( a yankee about 45 ) who had 6 Jim Beams then snuck out . Usually we have to pay for them but the bar did so good the MOD wrote it off
The girls and I had fun too . They did le me wear the old cocktail waitress uniform of the gold vest , white nehru shirt , red tie , and black faux leather mini . If anyone understands how sex sells it's my boss Brendan whose been woking in bars & hotels for almost 20 years now and whose wife Marla used to be a cocktail waitress . The General Manager also thought it was funny , guess he''s finnally lightening up after his
of firings and screaming at everyone . :
: To tease more tips out of the men I did my usual tricks o: .......naturally was friendly and flirted , several times pulling up the legs of my pantyhose when I knew men were watching but pretending I didn't see them , when standing on the stool with my back to the bar to get bottles I moved around my booty like it was a burlap bag full of bobcats , , and handing out more then a few free drinks . As provoking as that may sound Noreen does it all a whole lot better .being so much prettyer she starts out with a big advantage ,the guys all love her orangeish red hair , accent , coy smile , and melon like brests. She has this amazing ability to take and deliver orders with a look on her face thats says " You are such a special macho guy I just want to f u c k you !!" and doing a number where she sits down at a table and laffs at everything the guys say while provocativelly touching there arms . Her big thing though is bending over pretending to pick something up and showing off her very round and tight little booty . If I didn't know her so well I'd even get excited at that . :
: Mary Francis wasn't as blatant as Noreen and me being a nicer and more traditional woman . She does smile alot and bends over when putting the drinks on the table and so the men can see her 34 d brests , even laffs when someone is too obvious about doing it or when they make a joke about her brests . :
: .In the end we all did pretty well money wise , don't know if Noreen went up to any of her customer's room . :
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Don't know how long I'll be here I my refrigerator of a home today . Have to go work at 2pm or 1400 so hope someone comes home by then . The boiler guys are nice and cute too. I can think of a few of my friends here in town and at FF who wud be down there flitring up a storm with them and with one or two maybe doing more .:
: I work the bar and a private party tonite with wierd Norm the lazyest bartender in America :roll: Am planning on wearing the black cocktail waitress dress and nude thigh tops . Also look forward to taking a extra long hot shower when I get there to get all this coldness out of me and back to having a body temperature of 98.6.
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Post by Lena » Sat Nov 04, 2006 2:07 pm
Hi , Will be posting later today . Am swamped and it usually takes me a hour or so to get up a post . Besides my beloved is here.
Please come back , not that you'll see anything real smart or ultra -sexual but last nite was interesting .I got to be Lara Croft , sort -off . In the sexxy black cocktail waitress dress got to be macho with two loudmouth drunks who were looking for trouble and we had a impromtou concert in the bar by a Frank Sinatra wanna -be who was great .
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Post by Lena » Sat Nov 04, 2006 6:25 pm
Finnally some time to write! We've been running around so much this morning it brought back memorys of past times on speed . :oops: I have maybe 50 minutes then have to get to pick up baby Grady and go to Corvah's wedding .After that work . :cry:
The boiler guys were here till 1am getting the expensive new machine working .........finnally . I left at 2pm but John (teaches at the community college but used to own a restaurent which wud be interesting to hear about ) from upstairs was back so he took over being the official tenant-in-residence and door opener . :
: The heat banged on at about midnite my gf told me to the relief of everyone in the building I am sure and the boiler guys since they got to home .
Did feel good sleeping being warm too. After a day with out heat now don't mind spending the money for the new boiler. One of the boiler guys said the old boiler went back to 1930. Good heavens thats 76 years
, I can't think of anything made today that will still be working 76 years from now .
There were 4 boiler guys here including 2 younger ons in there early 20's who seemed real nice and smart . Saw one even looking at Baily and Belinda's WALL STREET JOURNAL left in the halway . They were plenty nice to me although don't think I looked all that foxy in a winter coat and jeans almost shivering and not in the best mood from the cold . . :
: It got me thinking about the age old comlaint of most women : namely you never meet decent guys .Sure you meet plenty of doughballs, rats , and married guys but your average single woman here will tell you good guys are harder to find then the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow . :oops:
In the irony of irony departments my gf and I seem to be meeting with the reverse .Is it some strange law of Mother Nature that only lesbian couples get to keep meeting the kind of guys most women wud love to catch ? I am sure many straight women reading this looking for a good guy will hate me or feel badly cheated but lately the good ones have been falling off the trees at our feet . None were really Prince Charming on a white horse but goodness knows he never existed outside of movies . :
: Just regular guys who don't want to stay a kid all there life having fun , have a job , and want to make it work with a woman . A real far cry from the married guys and yahoos I was attracted to during my single days . :oops: Like I said we've been running into alot of good guys in the last few months . I guess starting with the two guys we met in Montral in august Guy ( pronounced like key since he was Quebecker ) and Dennis ( who Guy-key kept calling Denny but whose grandparents had come from the UK :
: ) , they weren't the wildest lovers I've ever had ( not freaky enough like the guys in New Orpleans last summer were , if I can only sleep with a man once a year I want it all not just the missionary position !!! :
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. Have been seeing plenty of single good guys at work too.Including this army major about 35 .Not the best looking guy out there but you know he'd always be there and treat you good .
Can't foget the truckers Buck and Junior we met on the road monday . Being a trucker's wife is hard since there gone so much but whoever lands those two studs will be very lucky indeed. There more too but don't want to go on.I'd hate to make any good woman having bad luck finding a decent man out there depressed.
Got into work yesterday almost frozen . The shower in the locker room is great ,the pressure is intense and the hot water never ends .That was naturally my first stop :
:Now I now how frozen meat and fish feel when there thawed out , the water took the cold out of me and for the first time allday felt like the blood was pumping inside
Wore the black cocktail waitress dressand nude thigh tops . Worked the bar and a reception where a local entertainer sang and did comedy . His act included some great impersonations of everyone from Frank Sinatra to Harry Belafonte , Elvis , and even that psycho Michael Jackson( that got very nasty butw as funny ) funny . :
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Back inthe bar there as some trouble with two loudmouth drunks about 30 . Real fools who were walking around trying to pick up women even if they were with men, trying to bait some of the men into fight s, and being real gross pretending to do bodily functions. They were yankees too, what can you expect ? :
: I called security but no one showed up , later Shirley who claims to be XENA said she was busy in the parking lot shadowing some black kids she thought were muggers , fat chance and Vic the retired police said he was busy with a bad stomach .The metro sexual MOD Tommy came in and did ask the yahoos to chill but they just belched in his face and he left real quick saying "It's your bar , you handle it ................"and like the wind vanished .I didn't know what to do at all and being just 5'3" 127 pound wasn't able to go get physical .I offered them free drinks to go but all they did was ask me for a blow job , Grrr . So cocktail waitress Mary Francis and I just stood there watching the customers and there tips leave/run out one by one .Then as fate wud have it the cavalry arrived , 4 senior noncoms in there 30's-40's( who from past experience with those guys know they all think they are RAMBO and being togetehr wud feed off each other's machoness ) from Fort Knox came in wanting to chill. One of the yahoos made a real dumb commnet " Look it's GI Joe and the Ken dolls " and the sergeants were suddenly my own security . With a huge smile on my face I told the segreants those guys had been causing trouble and asked for help in getting them out . I hadn't even finished asking when they went over and told them it was time to leave. The other'sergeants just surrounding them ready to fight then and there . The two fools looked shocked realizing they were within seconds of the beating of there lives and you could tell all the anger and defiance in 'em just evaporated on the spot . One nodded and mumbled " Thats cool we were already going to leave" and they meekly walked out . The sarge's all laffed , feeling real proud of themselves then happily talking way about castrating the doughballs in the bar and past brawls /confrontations they'd been in all ove the world . Long live the US Army !!!
They drank free all nite , if anyone asks about that I'll just bring up how the MOD had run a way and the securitys were in hiding ............... :x
. Do hope this doesn't continue , in the past I've found trouble like this comes in bunches with something like it happening pretty soon .
Within a half a hour the entertainer who'd been working the reception was in the bar doing it all again for fun . The customers were back too and it was a good time for everyone . :
: Nothing like a good performer who loves what there doing to make everyone happy .Including the bartender
Today am in clothes from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION for my friend Corvah's wedding . Cranberry red cardigan and matching crew neck top that are both cashmere , a black skirt with a tartan pattern on it , also matching pink cami and undies and nude garter stockings . Am even going to wear black heels . At work later the black cocktail waitress dress and black flats .
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Post by Lena » Sun Nov 05, 2006 1:24 pm
Sunday morning and all over this real religious part of America here folks are waking up to go to services and for many after that heading out to a restaurent for dinner . Moi is here in her undies and a old T shirt to tired too think of even geting out of the chair but will have to since I work my pt job today . :roll: Mother Nature and fate are hooking up to make it all the harder for me to get up and get ready .It's overcast which makes it easier for anyone especially a tired body like me to stay inside sleeping and my gf worked a double and is home now needing TLC too.Nice to have heat back , it's no fun living in a ice box .
Enough of the self-pity! Yesterday was real busy , did errands and had sex ( am thinking buyng car tires and sweeping out spider webs may be a aphrodeiac :
: ) , went to my friend Corvah's wedding , then to work for a short shift . Didn't get home till 2am and then was still so wound up from all the running around I couldn't get to sleep . At 3am I was still in my uniform from work on the couch drinking red wine eating a uncooked hot dog and carrots and drinking more red wine watching movies .
The morning was busy with both sex and errands .Got a good deal on new tires for my car , only $ 100 for a set of new YOKOHAMAS at shop that has no name and is in a pretty bad area . Karin was terified being there and stayed inthe car with the doors locked all the time we were there . I told her if you want to get good deals you have to shop around and this guy ( a black dude named Spider who was in shades in shades and a red track suit ) can offer good deals by keeping his overhead low notpaying high rents in a strip mall high .Or so I like telling myself . :oops: . He also asked if we were interested in a new tv or microwave oven but I passed. :
: Getting such a good deal made me very happy , I was brimming from ear to ear . Back home we threw ourselves into cleaning . Never liked cleaning before but now makes me feel so in control and domestic .
We really have differnet standards , Karins are so much higher then mine but we avoid trouble since I do what I'm told . Nice to have heat back too, the cats also love it , there alot calmer and more relaxed :
: .We did alot including cleaning out cob webs in the corner , cleaning out the closets ( amazing how much junk we've built up in there ) ,and getting on our knees to polish the wood floor . That was my favorite part .Still feeling very good about my new car tires deal and just happy about having our life together when she was on all fours spraying MURPHYS OIL SOAP on the floor I bit Karin's booty and nature took it's course . :
: About 30 minutes later while laying on my back with only my T shirt on I saw the bottle of MURPHYS OIL SOAP all I could do was lafff and laff .............. :
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After Karin left for work I got dressed in the clothes fromt he MARILYN KING COLLECTION . Spent 15 minutes admiring myself in the matching pink cami , bikini briefs , garter belt and nude stockings in the long mirror we have on the bedroom door .I guess the shrink who examined me at 16 was right :I am a narcissitic personality . :
: It's really too bad I couldn't have gone that way to Corvah's wedding since I looked so incredabley good .!! Led me to decide to dress for attention today , see below . :
: Love the cashmere cranberry red cardigan and matching crew neck top . The pleated black skirt with the tartan pattern on it is nice too but should have gone out and bought a black A line skirt since don't think I look good in pleats but thats OK , the outfit still looked and felt plenty nice . Wore the black heels things that are a torture instrument for moi ................ :xWhen I walked out to my car saw Steve and Delores along with Belinda and Baily who all admired me looking so classy
. I think the clothes were older then all of them .
Met Leslie & baby Grady and her ex Bill in the lobby of the Holiday Inn where the wedding & reception were . This qualified as a visitation day and Bill wasn't going to leave his son there until I showed up . He also made it clear that in exactly 4 hours ( staring at his watch while he said that ) he wud be back to get Grady and dropped the real subtle hint he was going to be with his buddy who is something like a major in the metro police or whatever they call them . Do know he'd love to throw Leslie behind bars and get baby Grady for good . :x Les was naturally po'd and talked about what asshole Bill is and how he shouldn't be such a bully and also let her have baby Grady a extra day since Corvah's wedding was after all a special occasion , she was in the delivery room when Grady was born after all and Bill had always liked her . I agreed but said it doesn't help getting so worked up since all you can expect from Bill is him being rotten . :roll: Les agree then perked up when I told her how good she looked . As usual the shining brown hair , beautiful white capped teeth , perfect make-ip and nails along with in a new navy blue with white pin stripe pant suit with a double brested coat and flared pants . Also as always had new shoes, Manolos no less. She just radiates beauty in contrast to moi who has been told I radiate insanity , sluttishnes, and desperation .............. :
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:Ronnie Raye soon came with her 3 year son Tommy Jr. , her husband had to work and baby Autum Lee was with her dads folks .RR was in a dark purple skirt suit that was nice on her and black heels .
The wedding was simple but real nice . They had it in a small ballroom but the room was filled with flowers, something Corvah and her mom always loved .There were about 65 guests , most being black like the bridal couple . Although there were a few of us honkies , :
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:For Ronnie Raye and Les and me it wasmore then a old friend's wedding but almost l a reunion from the old poor black-poor white neighborhood we come from . Corvah wore a off-white sheath dress and some low key but classy pearls .She looked very happy and it showed, the woman had a glow about her .Iv'e known her for 13 years and Corvah never looked happier except for the times she first held her two kids .
Her husband Will was in a nice dark grey suit and seemed pretty happy too. Usually he 's sort of emotionless , the strong silent type you know . They wrote there own vows which was great and gave it all a personal touch .Watching you could tell they'd found each other's soul mate although there both so sturdy bet they'd laff at that description . :
: Several of the women , including moi , Les , and Ronnie Raye all wept when they exchanged " I Do's " . The preacher was a man about 60 and said it was one of the nicer ceremonys he'd ever performed . After the service they posed for pictures together and with there children Ali whose 4 and Amara whose 3 . Real nice and sweet .
The reception was drinks and a dinner . Real low key , everyone talked and had fun. got a chance to catch up with Ronnie Raye about things , her husband works at the army base and has ben putting in a lot of o t . We also tt Corvahs's sister Sissy whose a year younger . Real nice seeing her too, she works in security at Churchill Downs and has 4 kids at 25 ! :yikes: Her husband is some kind of city employee and was polite but not friendly . We all talked about our crazy old times . I'd forgotten how often we stole the tv from her at there hosue to watch MTV or the video's on BET .We apolgized for it last nite . :oops: Also there was a short heavy set black guy who was real friendly and knew us but neither Ronie Raye , Sissy , or I could plce hi . Makes you feel real stupid with someone there talking to you about old times and familier people and you just can't remember him . We all just kept talking going along with what he said . Also asked about Ronnie Raye's brothers and my cousin Francie which was extra shocking . . At that point it was both scarey and I felt 2" tall for not recalling him . We tryed to ask Corvah who this man was but she was to busy with well wishers so we just kept on talking about everything , nodding our heads & laffing when he brought up the old days . :oops: :oops: :oops:Luckily Corvahs' momcalled us over to talk and we escaped . the guy went on talking to some other people who he at least knew but we weren't sure if they knew him since they too looked puzzled . :
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and party animal .Real responsible & a church woman .You can tell thats where Corvah gets here sense from . She was real friendly , although happier hearing about Ronnie Raye being married with kids then when I said I'm with another woman . But kept on being real nice . Says she sees my mom every so often and asked how they are . I just shrugged my shoulders and said I haven't seen anyone for awhile but did real quick tell her how my cousin Francie who was part of the pack is doing great there days .
That made her happy , told her own mom how Francie was so pretty with rusty red hair and freckles . I mingled and talked to a few other folks including Corvah's cousin Marika whose now a black moslem calling herself Haleema .She was nice too but now is real serious .It's funny how people who were wild like she was as a kid and are now religious are so holyer then thou . :
: Same with born againers and even new agers . All get carryed away at the start . :
: Another great thing was seing all the kids playing together just like there moms did : baby Grady , Tommy Jr. and Ali were all running around one corner of the banquet room pretending to be super heros . It was real cute .
The only bad thing was seeing Leslie who'd been circling talking to everyone too jump on Corvah's older brother TJ when he came in .He must be 34 by now , real smart and cute but sad to say a biggie in the Gangster Disciples , a street gang here .Haven't seen him in a few years and he 's gone from the sweats to trying to pass as P.Diddy with a real GQ look , in dark black suit and silver tie .Except for the tinted glasses and earringsTJ looked more like a stock broker or lawyer then a gang leader whose been inside twice now .He was always nice to us ( may have saved my life at 17 after I won a fight with a real viscious black girl and he sent some fellows over to tell her to forget any idea of revenge ) and takes real good care of his mom but in the end he's still a dope peddler and shakedown artist preying on his own people .Also treats any woman he's involved in like crap and I won't even talk about his give a sh*t atitude about all his kids by the ladys . Ronnie Raye and I even hugged him and made small talk but Leslie went further and soon had her hands around his arm . Funny too since in the old days as far as white girls went he was more interested in my cousin Francie and our friend Debby then her .Les loves men , especially men with bank and he has it. ince he's her brother Corvah loves TJ but didn't want anything to do withthe gang life and always told us to stay away from him .We did see TJ and Les catching up and I am sure making plans involving a bed. :x Have come to see Les is Les being mostly interested in being a party girl , everything else comes second . Unlike the time at the mall with BE I wasn't po'd about ignoring her son since Grady was having so much fun with Ali and Tommy but just shaking my head at her poor choice in men . I just shook my head there with my blue eyes seeing TJ going to get drinks for himself and Leslie who was sitting there beaming away with pride about being with this guy . I sighed thinking how if her ex Bill and his police major pal ( Bill been a Lt. in the metro police ) had showed up and saw her with gang leader it wud be all over for her ever seeing her son again and probably a one -way ticket to the e-room for TJ too.................. :roll:
Ronnie Raye and I booked at the same time walking out with Corvah's auntie Mildred who is a hoot and a hollar .Work was boring and then I came home , like I said too wound up from being so busy too sleep.............
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Post by Lena » Mon Nov 06, 2006 12:10 pm
May post later today .............
Got home to find my gf pretty sick , guess she caught something during her 17 hour shift ...................
So I am the nurse and will be busy taking care of her .............
May have been in cahmere and heels saturday nite along with a sexxy mini and stylish boots sunday but today in a old lite grey T shirt and jeans ...............
I talked to my friend Ronnie Raye last nite about getting together soon , the wedding came up :
: ..........Neither of us could still figure out who the guy was who knew us and our familys and also wondered if Corvah and Will got a "Love Offering " , means money from her brother's gang as a wedding gift . :
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Post by Lena » Mon Nov 06, 2006 5:21 pm
Finnally today's post , although since yesterdays was so long the two may may be too much even for my most interested readers .......... :
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Since this is the Fashion forum will start by saying yesterday I wore the cheery Kelly green and white blouse uniform at the country club .It was even freshly cleaned and felt good . Also we had planned to go to some friends who were having a open house for the fun of it and then maybe out to eat so I'd dressed up in a white cashmere turtleneck sweater from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION ,along with a dark tan suade mini , nude thigh -tops ( not the usual cheapo ones from SEARS or a re-sale shop I get but a fancy pair that had a gorgeous lace top which wud have surely gotten me lot of attention :
: ) , and my brown boots with a 3" heel . But that was all not in the stars . After work came home to find my gf half-dead and in no mood to get out of bed let alone to a party . At first I thought it was since she was dead tired from woking a 17 hour shift but it was worse, Karin had come down with something that we now know is strep throat .
So looking very foxxy and in the mood to have some fun I ended up being the nurse for the rest of the nite . Making her hot tea and checking her temperature all nite . At about 7pm or 1900 our neighbor Steve and his gf Delores knocked on the door asking us if we wanted to go out for pizza, seeing me looking so good Steve whistled and said it's a I pity I don't like men since " I know how to make a woman feel right fine " :roll: Which got him a hard sock on the arm from Delores ( bet she has to do that does that alot with that oaf :
: )I laffed and said he deserved the punch then Steve asked if Delores could borrow the clothes and she clobbered him again and I acted like I was going to hit him too ........... :
: They were real concerned about Karin but hearing someone was sick macho but wimpy p***s person Steve couldn't get going quicker ......... :
: They were helpful picking up some needed Kleenex and toilet paper though . Good we're friendly again .
So for all last nite and today I am the nurse .Called my analyst to cancel our appointment , tt to the secretary and hope Naomi isn't mad . Am wearing a lite grey T shirt & jeans We got into see the doc earlyer who diagnosed this as the strep and then stopped to pick up a prescription and some food . My poor honey , she's always so beautiful and full of energy and today she's all pale and sweaty only wanting to sleep . :cry: Guess I'll be here at home all day and all nite .The cats are avoiding her, guess there scared of getting sick themselves . Ingrates !! Then again they both are sticking close to me like I am there mother in a crisis . Especially Fritz who is such a alpha male not being scared of anyone or anything but wanting reassuring now ..
Guess I could complain that this has ruined my day off but it really hasn't . Since I am trying to work on not being too scared to think about things did come to the conclusion that this is just part of life. With the good comes the bad and you have to deal with it . Seeing that made me feel good about myself , here I am thinking about things and not just reacting and feeling more in control of my own life
. Then when Karin started wretching again I felt guilty that had to be at the expense of her being so sick . :oops: Will bring all this up with the analyst when we meet on thursday .
Can't really complain about staying home last nite and today being the nurse .It goes with loving someone . Also last week was alot of fun for a whole month so I'm not hurting inthat department . Starting with saturday when I got to disgrace myself by going topless at the halloween party :
: Met some nice folks and had fun too. Despite standing there showing everything off and the people there in all sorts of sexual costumes the party had a clean cut quality . Everyone drinking , dancing , laffing ,and having fun . The road trip on monday was great too .Not just because those two hunkie truckers came onto us either, just felt great getting a way from town and on the road seeing new things .Loved too helping Marie and Belinda pass out haloween treats . A senior , a black yuppie woman , and hillbilly dyke all there being part of that all American holiday handing out the treats to about every kind of kid there is .
Liked too being saved by the army from the drunken yahoos at work and also seeing how Noreen's marriage scam may be falling apart . Best of all seeing my old friend Corvah get married
. The site of her kids along with Ronnie Raye's boy and Les's son all playing together was really heart warming . Do hope unlike there moms they don't go thru a sociopath stage though ! :
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So today I'm home looking out the window at the on -again/off-again rain and also the tv .There alls sorts of commercials and reports on CNN about tomorrow's big election .May watch a few movies as the day goes on while Karin sleeps .
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Post by Lena » Tue Nov 07, 2006 1:29 pm
Greetings from Lena's Clinic , since sunday nite my life has been being the caregiver and not anything else . Except for taking my gf to the doc's and stopping at the market have been here at home watching over my honey who is still sick . Really not much to say after that since all I have been doing is sitting in the living room and every half hour or so checking on Karin . She mostly sleeps . Have to make sure she takes her medicine and also force some food ( microwave soup ) and water down her which takes awhile considering how terrible she feels . Later today have to wrestle her into the shower since the girl is getting raw .........should be fun . :roll:
Not much to say since I've basically been inside. Today am in a lite blue t shirt and tan cargo pants Have had fires going almost all the time that are beautiful along with watching alot of tv including news shows about today's elections .The only real racy thing was talking to my friend Leslie yesterday , was so bored I called her .I do love her but Les really does add new meaning to the word idiot . Also have seen again that trouble can really show who people really are inside and this has left me with a new repect for anyone who stays at home being a caregiver .
All the news channels are focused on todays's elections . Interesting to hear about but after a hour or so it does get boring . CNN and MSNBC are the best with balanced reports from all the places there having elections . . The Fox News Channel is awful , hardly any reports from towns and citys about the races there but just people reading and talking as well as 110% pro Republican, listening to them unless the Democrats win every congress and senate race it'll be a huge victory for little georgey ............. :roll: Also saw a new show on BBCAMERICA , about a private eye called VINCENT . He's real human with alot of issues : fat , obsessed with his ex ,getting older, and looks depressed but really not a bad guy who wants to do the right thing . Could never be on tv here since our tv cops have to be perfect . :
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By 2pm or 1400 was almost stir crazy so I called my friend Leslie hoping to catch her before she leaves for work at 3:30pm or 1530. Les was in a really greatd mood , I guess that comes with being focused on having fun and not worrying about serious stuff. The last I saw of her was saturday nite at Corvah's wedding being very caught up in flirting with Corvah's gangbanger ( American for not only a bunch of people raping someone & also being in a gang ) brother TJ who now is trying to come off like P.Diddy .After talking abut the wedding ( we both agre Corvah was gorgeous and has found her life partner ) and also what a asswipe Les's ex Bill is ( he was over a hour late picking up there son and had been drinking but still blew up at her for not having Grady in the lobby ready to go whenever he decided to show up :x ) was relievd to hear she did not go home with TJ . Phew ...................Actually he had left to take care of some business right after I 'd gone ( who knows what that was ....... maybe seeeing another woman or overseeing a wholesale dope buy or beating some misbehving guy in his gang up with a hammer or baseball bat like I recall them doing ) and she went to her stockbroker bf Mark's ritzy condo downtown for the rest of the week-end . She thinks he's a great guy but boring .Told me with alot of pride BE came by after work monday morning and busted her out then left to go home and change for court . Nice she's letting herself be used as a human drinking fountain where men can just drop in and get rejuvinated and then go ..........................I tried warning her about seeing TJ but she cut me off laffing saying what a old wet blanket I've become . She's seeing him weds.The only question is how many minutes it will take between the time they actually meet and they have there clothes off............ :roll:
Leslie may be acting the fool but have gotten a new faith in the goodness of people during this time of Karin's being sick .Like I said yesterday our neighbor Steve and his gf went out to get us some needed supplys . Karin's folks are all concerned and coming over to check up on her later ( bet her neatness fanatic mom will clean the place too :
: ) , and the wonderful retiree Marie down the hall has brought over some food and even offered to wtch Karin so I can go vote . Still haven't decided about that , don't want Marie getting the strep which I worry since she's something like 72-74 could be real dangerous . Even Karin''s baby sister Diane jr . who always only talks about how great or all the serious trouble she has with her doughball husband called to find out what's going on not mentioning her dickbrain hubby once . Where I'm from that wud all be seen as weakness but to these people it's just part of being a good person which is great .
makes me repsect more anyone who stays home to take care of someone else since it is hard work . Incluiding fighting the isolation and monotony . Can't see how my cousin Francie stays home with 5 kids all day ! BTW , am sending Francie a e-mail today telling her how I think she's great for doing that .
I'm going to check on Karin and then watch some tv .Raining again today so am going to put ona fire too. The cats are all happy sleeping next to each other on the floor by a heat duct onthis old army blanet we found in a closet .
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Post by Lena » Wed Nov 08, 2006 2:11 pm
Still am operating a clinic here on our tree lined street . My gf is still sick but is finnally starting to rebound , was up at 5am and had some actual energy .
The cats were excited , waking up from there sleep to meow away at her like they were saying " Good to see your getting batter
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She even was able to take shower and I got into change the linen on the bed and put the blankets into the washer .She's back sleeping and is staying home today too , I have to work but Marie will be dropping in to check up on her.The old girl is so great she just kept insisting and insisting to help so having to go in I said OK .
Karin's folks came by to check and do what they could to help last nite . I was thinking of doing things to impress them with how serious I am dealing with this crisis, like maybe wear the old nurses uniform from last halloween .It's shortened to mid thigh length and leave most of the front buttons open , no undies ofcourse The maybe stick a porno movie in the dvd machine and be drinking . :
: Also let some sexual storys slip or tell them about the shady deal concerning my new car tires . That wud all sure impress them !!!!! :
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They came over about 6pm after work , even brought several bags of food which we don't need but were welcome .In keeping with the sacred family rule like machines both took there shoes off like they were machines when they came in . Brad looks better and better , seems to have more energy & his color back . Told me the doc thinks he's doing fine with no signs of cancer anywhere else .
I had a fire going and he went over to admire it ,he really it and went on telling me about fires they had at his folks house when he was a boy and bonfires they've had when camping .Diane rushed into see Karin and gave her some TLC which had to have been good mentally wise .Karin had enough energy for maybe 10 minutes and was back to sleep . Diane then quizzed me about how her daughter's been doing and the whole story about the medicine & doctor . I tried being as reassuring as I could but Diane still seemed really nervous and told me to call her if anything happens which ofcourse I did . She hardly ever smiles and is always nervous expecting things to always be perfect so something like this must be driving her crazy . Then she looked all around the place not doupt seeing if anything was dirty or messy to clean up . Brad was funny, showing her the nice fire . She didn't say anything bad but you could tell her skin was crawling about the pile of ashes inside.Not even the inside of a fireplace can be dirty to her . :
: When they left I thought that maybe Diane's fanaticism about cleanliness and things being perfect is something like my anorexia ( which I am in recovery from ) being all about control of your life and also laffed thinking how they have a fireplace but it's never been used probably since poor Brad doesn't want to put up with his wife scraming about the ashes . :
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For the rest of the nite I watched the elections , first time I've ever done that and it was pretty fast paced .Even made some popcorn and had some wine when watching . They say all the senate and congress races were really referendums about little georgey .From the results see many are as sick of his bungling as I am .No Democratic Party guy in office lost and the Democrats took control of congress and came very close to doing it with the senate where little georgey already has problems with his own party . :
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: About every writer or profesor or retired politician on said george jr. is a lame duck who will more or less sit out the remainder of his term . Good , he won't be able to do any more harm
. Hope now they'll back off from the planned war with iran and also won't try again to end old age pensions and health insurance for the seniors and poor .
This morning Steve droped by to ask if Karin is better, dropped a hint too that things betwen his co-worker BE and my fried Leslie aren't going smoothly and wanted to know if I knew anything about it ...........
Moi didn't mention a thing , especially that Leslie will be sport f u c k i ng a gangbanger whose also a convicted felon later today :roll: . I am out of this soap opera now!!! Steve had his dog Marshal Dillon who is a friend of our cats , they came out to meow "hi" but wud have become bitter enemys if he'd gone anywhee near there food bowels . :
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I'm in a white T shirt and jeans . Will put on a hooded pink sweat shirt to go to work in . At work tonite the penguin suit and orthies . I'm not complaining about staying home to take care of my gf but am looking forward to some human contact . She's been mostly sleeping so we can't talk and you can only talk so much to a cat before you wonder if your minds going .................. :
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Post by Lena » Thu Nov 09, 2006 2:38 pm
A nice day today !It's mostly sunny and warm . My gf is still pretty sick but a whole lot better then the last few days . Still sleeps most of the time but is staying up for longer periods , eating some solid foods , and talking . She should be back to work on friday .The hospital has been real good about her having to take time off , guess when your in the taking care of sick people buisness you understand when folks fall ill. She was up earlier to watch the news and set the tivo for OPRAH and is back sleeping now . A good sign that she's almost thru this strep throat is the cats are being friendlier to her, those two won't have anything to do with anyone if there sick . :roll: You feed 'em and pay for the vet bills but if you have a fever it's adios from them . :
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Yesterday I hung around the house being the nurse and watching tv . I can't get into movies when I have other things to do like be the nurse so mostly watched either the cartoons or the news channels ( what a mix ! ) .There's a whole channel called BOOMERANG that shows only old cartoons and it's like revisiting my childhod . Some I remember seeing but others while I knew about them I never actually saw . Some were on cable which we didn't have while others were on when my mom was married to the soldier and getting to see what you wanted on tv was rare since Paul ( his name ) being the commanding officer or really king on wud watch his shows ( alot of sports ,westerns , copps shows and war movies ) , let his favorite son Patrick watch what he wanted or hook his Video game up to the tv set ( which we could only play with if Patrick said so ,which the spoiled brat never did :x ) , or ,couldn't since it was always lights out at 8pm or as Paul wud bark out "2000hours " .
The news was real interesting and got more interesting as the day went . All the stations were talking about the big win for the Democrats and how it's so bad for little georgey , :
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Wanted to keep him on they said but couldn't since the Democrats wud use rumsfeld to beat on little georgey . All the tv reporters and people they talked to were amazed since rumsfeld was one of george jr.'s favorites . Old rumsfeld was on tv and looked real upset , a sad old man( he's 75!! ) being thrown out like garbage . Something he does have alot in common with ! ! As I was watching it all got driven closer to home when my partner from work called about something else and he said when the news about rumsfeld getting canned came on a whole table of army colonels and majors broke out cheering . They all despised him , from what I could tell since rumsfeld sent the army to fight a war without enough men and equipment , micromanaging everything even though he was never in a war , making them use a strategy that wouldn't work , along with the whole not very openly talked about but still is in private that this was not really a war for America but for israel thought up by traitors .Good riddance to bad rubbish !
I went into work and Marie from down the hall cheked in on Karin few times last nite . Going into work was actually fun , did have to stay home and take care of my gf but it did get boring with her sleeping so much and me there alone in the silence almost the entire time betwen 4pm sunday and 2pm weds. The hotel itself was jumping , being a real anthill full of business and government travelers along with a huge trade group meeting .When I walked( inthe penguin suit ) from the offices to the bar all the excitement of all kinds of people running around , the noise , bright lites , and even the new luggage carts the bellmen are using struck me . Injecting moi with some energy.The bar was jumping all nite , hardly any time to relax and visit here. Worked with cocktail waitresses Siohban ( has a new American bf and is very happy ) and Mary Francis . They tell me Noreen's marriage was approved by her fiance's chaplin , dam! :x So now we're waiting for the invites to this big hoax of a wedding . :roll: I may skip it , I've seen too many foreigners marry soldiers to get into America then dump on them as Noreen will surely be doing . Also am disgusted by her nagging the poor guy to volunteer for combat risking his life so she can get his extra comabt pay .We also had or own BIFFA last nite , he's the member here who logs in but never posts or goes in the cr . Was a 50something who was fat and bald in a cheap loking suit with no tie who sat ithe corner all nite nursing one
. He creeped out the cocktail waitresses but didn't bother me . My attitude being " If they aren't groping , shouting , slugging , or shooting there no real problem " . After almost 7 hours he finnally left , giving Mary Francis this here huge one dollar tip . Those Irish can have god senses of humor , she was joking about having the dollar framed . :
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I'm heading out soon . Being so nice outside I dressed up , for moi anyway . In a old tan corduroy blazer , lite blue shirt , khaki skirt, nude pantyhose , and my Schollls . Am heading to the analyst then work . The bar will be a real zoo tonite full of men watching the University of Louisville is in a big football game . Do plan on wearing the penguin suit but am now giving thought to wearing the old cocktail waitress uniform with it's very short faux black leather mini to make more money :
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Post by Lena » Fri Nov 10, 2006 2:03 pm
Over 200 hits here yesterday , thanks !!! Wish I had something really interesting to write today as a special thank you .
In general am hearing how some banned people think I am many posters with alot between their ears , like judgey , FA Sue , and the old member Raymond-Bergman . I'm flattered !! Last nite I even got a e-mail that some of the same doughballs think I'm also The Realist .Hee hee, in addition to all my other issues I now must have multiple personality disorder! In additon to being me also a yuppie computer guy in his late 20's , the creative entrepaneur who owns FF who I see in her mid- late 30's , R-B who some thought was a professor or government worker about 35 , and now a black woman about 22. In addition to the Xanax I may ask the doc for prescriptions for anti-psychotics that have already been suggested by others going back to when I was a teen-ager. :
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The whole town is upset that the University of Louisville lost a big football game with Rutgers ( a rich kids school where the guy who plays TONY SOPRANO went to school ) and theres gloom and also a "wait till next year " atitude in the air.But call me selfish I still feel pretty good. My gf is really improving , still sleeps alot and is pale but is up more being active . After I left she woke up and cleaned the kitchen which for my beautiful little neat freak involves hard stuff scrubbing out the dishwasher and oven .She was up this morning cooking us up some breakfast to and is now back in bed . Plans to go back to work tomorrow .It's also warm again, a nice indian summer that I think puts most in good mood .
Did go out in the tan corduroy coat ,lite blue shirt and khaki skirt eysterday . My gf says I look just like the Chinesse woman who was one of her English professors at school , a real academisc wierdo who only cares about her subject and like moi doesn't really care about the latest fashion . . Karin can get mad I don't care about being stylish since up to a point ( she 's always has some of the latest styles but is not obsessive about looking trendy ) she does . I see it as freedom though , I was not put on the planet to be slave to what some designer says and like too many women go to work to feed a clothes jones . Besides we both agre the clothes from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION nad that particular style have basically solved the issue .
Had a intense time at the analyst yesterday going over and over the whole curse of fatalism that involes being cynical , not giving alot of thought to my actions , and depression . I guess I have to really soak it all in and understand it to go forward .BUT we also agreed kids are like a blank slate or empty can that parents /there enviorment can fill up with bad things that become a big or the big part of there life.Something that happened to me and most important for the here and now it's up to me to wipe away /empty out all the bad stuff . I sure want too .That led to to talking about me having to always tell myself not to be a victim anymore ( she encourgaed me to get mad if that helps which believe me I have no trouble doing ) and to use whats called cognative therapy technics . Her meaning seeing what you want , looking at how to do it , and most of all look back at things that have worked out and why they did as sort of a shot of optimism /confidence . It seems simple but was still real hard to think about doingt here in the office but later at work when I thought about using that technic it made sense .We really have hit on something .More later .........
Work was very intense !!! Like last week the bar was full of men waiting to watch the football game . I'd planed to wear the penguin suit but seeing how the bar was going to be full of guys did wear the old ocktail waitress uniform again of the gold vest , red bow tie , white nehru shirt , and black pretend leather mini . Seeing me do that the two cocktail waitresses Noreen and Siohban did the same . The seamstress was laffing away saying how glad she is for saving the uniforms since they still are used at special times ( namely when we can wear them to bait the p***s people into giving bigger tips :
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The game was going for our team early on with everyone being real excited even the out -of-towners .The guys were drinking away like crazy with almost all being experts on all things football. We were working pretty hard in more ways then one . All three of us were swamped with taking and filling that at times seemed almost overwealming . Half-time was really crazy , like a tsunami of orders hit . The same for Room Service that kept making deliverys all nite with a few guys even having dinner served int he bar so they could watch the game . Although I was on automatic manic filling all the orders also saw several pizza's delivered from several Italian restaurents . We were also performing for tips . There was once a thread here where I said I felt like actress at work and another member said she learned more about acting from working in bars then she ever did studying it in school .All of us were last nite , although stressed out I made it a point to smile when giving everyone there
, flirting left and right , pulling up my pantyhose all night ( did it so often am surprised they weren't around my neck by the end of the shift ) , non-chalantly scratching my thighs ( did that so much am also surprised I don't have any black n' blue marks ) , and handing out free drinks to the guys who looked like they wud leave a big tip .She may be a selfish hussy but must say Noreen was pretty good too , she is one of the best flirts I have ever seen . Last nite again using the tactic I like to think I invented ( actually learned it from my best friend who was a stripper at the time ) when I was a cocktail waitress of when flirting with guys putting her foot on a empty chair or even the chair the guy was actually sitting at . She was real star too with all sorts of p***s people at her knees ........... :roll: :
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Im leaving later to meet my friend Leslie to be the custody monitor , something I almost now regret I ever got roped into . I'm too involved in her life and am starting to get a way too a realistic view of Les .Likes fun more then being a mom which brings back to many bad memorys for me and she doesn't realize you can't stay 20 all your life. Especially the way we were at 20 :yikes:But first Karin and I though are going to go for a little walk around the neigborhood to be getting her some fresh air . Should be real nice !
I'm dressed pretty much like yesterday , a lite grey v-neck sweater & white shirt both from The MARILYN KING COLLECTION , the same khaki skirt as yesterday , nude pantyhose, and Scholls . At work the sexy black cocktail waitress uniform and black flats . They have us at a private party which should so that will fit in .
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Post by Lena » Sat Nov 11, 2006 1:48 pm
200 plus hits here yesterday ,
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It's a interesting morning here , cooler and wet . No way like the last 2 days I could go out in a lite skirt and Scholls .Seems indian summer is over . Do like cool and wet fall days . They can make me feel good in more then one way . Sometimes being reflective thinking about the big things ( not today though , my mind is in low gear :
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. The cats already ate , Agatha is at her post in the front window keeping a eye on the outside . She's be a good security .
Fritz who is so independant and macho is now sleeping on achair under the kitchen table , am sure he'll be up to something later . The coffee is good too.Plan to go for a walk before heading into work since Karin doesn't need someone all the time .
CNN is on in the back , all the news is about the big defeat for little georgey this week . Yipppeeee!!!!!!
Also alot of talk about what could happen next in iraq . Sounds like the we'll be bugging out next year which isn't a day to soon for moi .They also had some israel firster on CNN all upset that the new secretary of Defense doesn't want a war with Iran like rumsfeld did . Hee hee, good ! If that guy wants to fight Iran let him go and start his own war . :
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The only thing that could be nicer here is if my gf was well. She's almost over the strep but is still sick . Has energy and does pretty good then is exhausted and back to sleeping for hours . She plans to stay home again today and rest then has sunday-monday off. I just hope I don't get it . never have had strep throat before and am not in a hurry to experience it either . Another thing for moi to worry about . :roll: Like I wrote earleir we had some trouble with two jerks at the bar and I've found things like that come in bunches so I'm waiting for something else like that :
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yahoo at work ...........Good I have a gallows sense of humor 8)
Yesterday was a mix of good and bad starting with the bad .Met my friend Leslie to be custody monitor and except for paying with baby Grady it was a disaster.It all began when we picked up Grady , Leslie always waits in the car since she usually gets into shouting matches with her ex nd also 2 years ago even got in a arguement with his gf Nancy with Les ending it all by shoving Nancy down on the floor . :roll: Guess Nancy's kickboxing & women's boxing classes didn't do her much good . :
: Anyway when I walked in yesterday it was Bill and Nancy who were fighting , don't know what it was about but they were being right viscious towards each other . Nancy using about every swear word I know toward him . Those yuppettes all love swearing , they think it makes them tough :roll: . Bill was calling her swear words too and the 4 letter word for vagina and then as she screamed at him being even louder he made noises as if to drown her out . All I cold say was " Hi , We're here for Grady " and I got a snear form Bill who hollared for Grady to come ( bet he was hiding under his be to escape the adult's fighting ) while Nancy didn't even say anything & coldly walked by me like I was invisable . Grady looked awful , know the feeling of being confused and scared when adults fight like that . He was smiling though when we got outside and smiled from ear to ear when he saw his mom. As I got into Les's jeep could still here the screaming and name calling from inside.................It's always a pleasure dealing with mature and level headed people . :roll:
Les was gorgeous as always ( yesterday country chic in a matching jean jacket and pants along with a tan blouse and her expensive Tony Lama cowboy boots ) but acted a fool . I swear if it wasn't for baby Grady I'd bow out of this custody monitor thing and back off from her till Les is done trying to re-live her teen-age years . :x I can't really diss her here since she is my best friend and has aways been great to me . She did love seeing Grady ( we went to a bookstore for a kids story hour then lunch and a real nice park ) .But took away from the whole day by being on the phone alot to her now 3 bf's, Mark the investment guy , BE the railroad police, and TJ the gangbanger .Only Les could have 3 guys and also 3 guys who are so different from each other at the same time , to use a old redneck saying it comes with " having a mind thats wild and a body the devil styled ". :
: But in the process ignoring Grady :cry: . I did my best to amuse him when she was flirting or having phone sex with her p***s people , won't even get into how hard it was climbing on the a jungle gym with him in a skirt . :roll To be fair between talking to her guys Les did throw herself into faling all over Grady but always went back to being on the phone with one of them . Grades didn't mind though , he really worships his mommy and loves all attention from here. I was geting sadder though .
Felt even worse when Les started talking . She was boasting about always being sore between her legs , all the things the guys are buying her and classy restaurents they take her to , and feeling like such a playa juggling three men at the same time . Like she had discovered the cure for cancer or something like
. Likes all that Mark is spending on her but is bored with him .That figures , he's the most normal one of all three and the only one marriage-ready . Is annoyed with BE and thinks she needs to show him whose the boss which for her means game playing , including sexual game playing of some kind . TJ though really has her excited , maybe since she's so fickle and he is the latest guy she's sleeping with or maybe since he's black and a outlaw . Doesn't seem to matter to Les that his siter our old friend Corvah won't like this at all.Also since however good looking and fun TJ is he is the last kind of guy for any woman to get involved with . He has always treated his women like dirt and ignores all the kids he's sired , the Gangster Disciples gang won't let him settle down with a white chick especailly one who was married to a cop thinking she'd be a spy , and from what Les says he has some pretty kinky sexual tastes that sounds like he picked up during his two stays in prison . :yikes: And believe me they are strange, including that he likes strap- ons used on him too, eech :puke: ! !!! Bill too wud use a relationship with a known gangbanger and convicted felon ( one bit was for shooting a rival gang member in the chest ) to take away Grady forever . Stll Leslie is all excited , she's even enlisted the stripper Wendy Kay who she and BE had a threesome with for some special fun with TJ soon .............
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Bill picked Grady up at the park and looked terrible . Les was in the bathroom and he all nice and also all phony asked me not to mention the fight he and Nancy were having to Les since she might use it against him . If he only knew about her shenanigans ............................
:roll: I hugged and kissed Grady good-bye and Bill smiled at that . You know I wud like to think he meant it but with a guy like him and especially since he was being so phony I can't believe he was pleased ...........
It did bother me as I drove to work but I pushed it out of my mind . Later during a slow period at the bar used some of the cognative therapy techniques learned from the analyst to deal with it ans it worked
. Decided it's there problem and for my own sanity I have to stay out including not getting worked up with Leslie's failings as a mom and idiocy with the guys .Les is Les and you can't save anyone from themself .She'll keep on being this way until like cocktail waitres Noreen at work the guys get sick of her and book .Hope she does change though . My job is being nice to Grady , heaven help the poor little boy but I'm the sanest person in his life !
Work was pretty good though .Had fun during the shift ( everything went smoothly with my co-workers and we all picked up the crowds relaxed and happy mood ) and walked out with over $125 in tips that the tax man will never find out about :
: Wore the sexxy black cocktail waitress dress I did private partys most of the nite all nite , first in a ballroom with Cassady who as always looked gorgeous in the same uniform then alone in a hospitaltiy suite for some law firm . Worked the bar at the end of the shift with cocktail waitress Magdalana who is hoping for a amnesty for illegal aliens that is being talked about .I am against any amnesty for all the mexicans and south Americans who have snuck in wanting to take over here................ except for her.Call me egocentric if you will.............My friends in security walked me to my car at 2am .real lucky for me was when I got home there was a police car parked at the intersection in front . Didn't have to be paranoid at all going from the car tothe front door.
Today am in a black wool turtleneck sweater from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION with a red cami underneath so I won't itch to death , jeans , black socks , and clogs . We so a big wedding tonite so again with the sexxy black cocktail waitress dress, nude garter stockings , and black flats .
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Post by Lena » Sun Nov 12, 2006 3:49 pm
We had over 200 hits here yesterday ! Maybe it was talking about my gf's case of strep throat or perhaps just by chance me mentioning the time Jerry and Colleen and I all got very nasty that one afternoon on a rainy fall day 4 years ago ? Hmmm.................. :
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It's sunday morning here, real clear out now but was cloudy when I woke up . I slept in and am lazy today .Just been sitting around in the silence ( don't have the tv or radio on ) drinking coffee with Fritz the cat curled up ina little ball next to me on the couch taking his morning nap . It really feels good sitting around recharging and also not hearing any noise except the cat purring away .I could do with another 4 hours of this but have to get ready soon to go to my pt job at the country club . My gf is almost recovered from the strep throat , still sleeps alot but looks more livlier and has more and more energy .She's still sleeping and plans to go over to her folks later while I'm to work .
Yesterday was routine and then some . Maybe since thursday with the analyst and friday with Leslie along with dealing with her jerk -off ex and the she-devil he's with had both been so dramatic .After making sure Karin had everything she need ( like Kleenex which we're going thru like crazy and water ) by the bed I left and did stop for coffee . Was nice to sit and watch the crowd at the coffee boutique , really was packed with a mix of people . The manager telling me after 6pm or 1800 it's full of teen-agers which isn't surprising since they want to be out of there folks house and having fun . Hanging around a coffe boutique is wholesome and also safer then many of the things we did when I was a teen-ager too. :
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But then life today is complex and it's also fun going from feeling very functional in such comfortable clothes to feeling feminine and elegant . Happy to say coming out of the locker room looking so good I got leers /smiles from a couple of the mexicans who were mopping the floors , one of the metrosexual guys who work at the front desk ( I was really complimented about that since his hair and nails are better then most women , especially mine ) , a few male guests , and a angry jealous glance from Barb Stuart the concierge who hates me and knew she didn't standing there in her navy blue pant suit uniform look anywhere near as good as moi ..................... :
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The first part of the shift in the afternoon was BORING ......No customers and no cocktail waitress to talk too .Just me in the empty saloon with the temptation to start drinking to escape the boredoom and head off getting depressed . :yikes: But lucky for me my boss Brendan was in to do some paper work and came into talk ( we go way back 6 years when he was bartender and his wife and I were cocktail waitresses at the Marriott hotel ) and that was real nice . We talked about old times including how we all got fired together as part of a big purge of trouble makers :
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. It all got better when two of my favorite securitys came in and joined us , Barb whose 29 and waiting to be hired by metro police and Bob whose 32 & was a sheriff but got hurt and is now going to law school . We all gabbed away about many things and came up with the idea to send K-Fed a e-mail and a telegram offering him a job at the bar .Goodness knows we need to bring back the bar backs and he could become a actual bartender too. He needs the work too we agreed , since he won't be able to live off Brittany Spears anymore and doesn't seem to be popular enough to be a star on his own .Wonder if he'll get the messages ? :
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Things got exciting later when Cassady( we didn't have time to talk ) and I worked a big 300 person plus wedding . The hotel must have made a fortune since this was a real classy one with exotic overdurves , the dinner being steak or trout with the the hotel "making" the cake ( they use a outside baker then charge about twice as much as they paid the baker) drinks were free ofcourse and they had some upscale whisky's and liqueers too. but as I always say since I work maybe 30-40w edings a year they all now seem the same. Even though I 'm busy i have this always right 6th sense about when the bridal couple will walk in , what they or there parents will say to people at the bar , and even what various types of guests will say to each other . :
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After the weding ended at 11pm ( the bride's daddy gave us each $100
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who at closing I had to call a cab for since they were in no condition to drive home . Along with 3 UMC couples inthere 30's-40's who all only talked about themselves mostly doing a whole lot of bragging (and to think some say they say I am a narcissist ! :
: ) along with this very strange litle man who at first semed creepy then I started to like .Looked like the nerd's nerd , being about 35 & real short and slight with heavy black rimmed glasses . As he ate away at the pizza he kept laffing away at a horror movie on the tv . Had no trouble seeing zombies eat people & laff away at that all the while chowing down pizza . I've been expecting more trouble since the 2 obnoxious drunks last week and thought he may be it . But to my surprise when he asked for another beer we started talking and he was really nice and very funny . A engineer from California named George who showed me pictures of his also wierd looking wife ( she was the twin of OLIVE OIL from POPEYE ) wife and 4 strange looking kids but they looked like one of those happy familys that we all want to be part off .He started making comments about the movie that almost had me in stiches laffing too . Appearences really can be decieving .
Am of to my pt job at the country club .It's sunny but cooler today .Didn't really have the inclanation to get dressed up , you could call today's clothes just sloppy or hooker chic : a white henley with long sleeves , badly ripped up short jean cut-offs ( the seam on the side of the leg is ripped all the way up to where the belt goes ) , nude support hose , along with my brown boots with a 3" heel . At work there cheerful uniform of a Kelly green jumper & white blouse and my new brown flats with a pointy toe.............
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Post by Lena » Mon Nov 13, 2006 3:09 pm
My day of and I am very happy . Also very happy Karin is pretty much over her strep throat . She still gets tired but her mind is fine and has more and more energy . Great seeing her color back and moving again .
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Yesterday was another one of those ordinary days in your life when nothing important or will stick in your mind happens . Since this is a Fashion Forum we'll star with talking about clothes .Did head out in the white henley and falling apart cut-offs , looked pretty " interesting " I guess . :
: With the old black leather biker jacket ( my cousin and I stole 2 from biker gang mamas at a restaurent when we were 16 , right away taking off the colors or gang names so the gang wouldn't see us and do something like beating us senseless or worse ) and boots looked like a hooker .I guess you could call that outfit " Hooker Chic " or " Fashion Egocentric " :
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.One of the waitreses who is real negative and critical stared at moi almost in shock or maybe even disgust but said nothing .. Actually she was happy since I gave her something to gossip and fault find about . :
Back home later I saw our neighbor Steve and his gym teacher type gf ( she's a wonderful woman whose tall and thin and very atheletic with terrible hair and a plain manner ) Delores bringing in grocerys with there hands to full to open the door so in those same clothes went out and I opened it up for them . That Steve is such a p***s person wise ass going " Thank you Daisy May " , a slang term for hillbilly women runing around in rags . I pretended to smile and went " Hah hah hah Steve " :
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Other then that things were pretty uneventful .Work at the country club was allright . The rich people are always happy and nice to us peons .They drank more though , usually go thu 20 bottle of champagne but yesterday we used up 28 . Heard some talk about both the elections and the war . There all mostly Republicans (maybe not some of the black members but I think most of them too since if theres one thing I am finding is most people of any color who grew up poor or being bigoted against who then goes on to make big bank end up right wingers :roll: ). What was really interesting was no one seems all that excited about little georgey and all that was said aout Iraq was that it's bad or gone south .Good to see we're finally learning .........
Karin came back fom her folks bringing back some dvd's and a pizza .She laffed at what I told her about Steve and Delroes and loking me up and down said " I admire your courage for going out like that " then laffed and shook her head . :
: Told her how it's a whole new look the designer's wil be adopting soon , calling it either "Hooker Chic " or "Fashion Egocentric ". She went back to shaking her head ......... :
: We drank a bottle of red wine and chowed down on the spinach pizza watching JACKIE BROWN thats now one of our favorite movies . We love any movie where a woman is the hero and gets over on the p***s people ( good lord I'm sounding like our male -hating friend Shoshana here , sorry :oops: ) and loved it . Had Pam Grier from the L-WORD in it ( who also looks like the ass't principal at the middle school I went too) .
I posted in MEMBERS but saw alot of familier stuff in the movie that hit me a different way from when I saw it first as a teen-ager .I could really identify with the woman Bridget Fonda played , it struck me how she was going nowhere with no goals but getting high and watching tv & terrible taste in men . That was me but doing more hanging out more then watching tv but still getting high and going for awful guys ( and a few awful woman ) . I could be mean like her too . Like to think thats all changed and do realy hope I don't end up shot dead in a mall parking lot
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: . In my old neighborhood knew way too many guys like the fool Chris Tucker played , all wanting to be players but ruining it for themselves by being such immature over grown little boys . The man played by Robert De Niro was just like a bf of my mom who lived with us for awhile ; over 40 but with greasy long hair , a goatee and he didn't shave every day , tattoos galore, and a prison record .The only real difference was the De Niro guy had all his teeth while Leroy didn't . All the women in my family seem to get involved with worthless doughballs like him . :x :x :x That particular guy came on to me and 2 of my sisters then booked after getting a 15 year old neighbor girl pregnant , mom was heart broken . :roll: There were a few others aged punks who tryed passing themself of as the slick hood played by Samuel L .Jackson but even then I knew while they may be mean and could do anything to anyone the truth was they were really nothing more then aging punks .There was one big burly dope dealer about 35 named Jesse Brooks who had everyone scared but do recalll one nite seeing him actually crying and begging for mercy when three black cops beat him up with there big flashlights and stomped all over him . He didn't scare anyone too much after that and moved on . :
: The most unrealistic character was the bail guy . In the movie he was a yuppie type , the ones I've seen ( like the goons who came by looking for a brother -in-law at the time ) were not much better then hoodlums . :x
Karin is back at school and when she finishes we head out to do errands .She has a long list of things to catch up on today after being sick for a week so we'll be busy . I'm "Fashon Egocentric " again today too , in a navy blue check shirt , black skirt , and the same nude support pantyhose as yesterday
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Post by Lena » Tue Nov 14, 2006 2:01 pm
Not much happened yesterday , the big and best news being that my gf is bouncing back from the strep and I haven't gotten it ! Phew.............
All totalled we spent 6 hours at my gf's school yesterday betwen having lunch and me waiting on her to finish 2 labs . She's got to play catch up for the week she missed and is panicing about being behind . I trust her to get caught up and tell her that al the time . While she was there in the lab I took a long walk around the campus and played on the computer in the library . Never thought I wud ever be hanging around a school since I was never very good at it and (unlike sex drugs , having fun , and drinking ) education was no big deal in my family . But there I was among all the smart people with there back packs and laptops .
Funny to how my "Fashion Egocentric ' look for right in since many of the professors and teachers and graduate students are more into there subject then appearence . No one stared or laffed at me in the old leather jacket , black skirt , and ( in novemeber :!: ) sandals walking around .
After that we had dinner at Mac Donalds ( or the Aluminum Room as we call it ) and saw BORAT which is pretty funny . It's doing real good here, even though it was a monday nite the theater was almost half full. I went to get popcorn but blurted out " Good lord !!! " all shocked to find a bag started at $5. No thanks !! On the way home Karin said she was tired and started to doze off so , guess he's stil not completely over the strep so oonce back here she was soon sleeping . I made a fire and loved seing it burn away .At about 9pm my boss called from work wanting to know if I wanted to do a trade show party ( based on seniority Rafael and I get first pick on all special events with there big tips ) and saying I'd do it then talked . I've been saying trouble at work comes in bunches and after the two
fools last week I expect more bad stuff to come and it's all happening :x . Brendan telling me how earlier in the nite they had our first actual barroom brawl in over a year between about 7 yuppies with 2 actually fighting and 5 cowards all screaming away and waving there hands at each other . :roll: No mention of any reply to our e-mail and telegram to Kevin Federline offering him a job at the bar though :
: I played with the cat , checked in here , and then watched this pretty good UK movie called SEPERATE LIES . Checked in on CNN to see more bad news about Iraq and Afganistan and at that point decided it was time to sleep .
Just got a e-mail from my favorite cousin Francie who stays up north now . She's a doll and then some but real overloaded taking care of a hubby who works 80 hours a week and 5 kids . She loves her family but having to always do something almost 24/7 is really getting to her . Except for taking her older children to & from the school she never leaves the houss spending all day preoccupied withwatching the little ones , cleaning , and changing diapers . She sounded me out about visiting but ( :
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Have to get my gf up in another hour , am letting her sleep in since she needs the rest .Has to go back into work tonite and needs to be all rested and in good shape . Hope they have her in intake assessing everyone coming in and not running around in a unit , she should take it easy for the first days back after being so sick herself.We're going to mostly stcik around the crib till Karin leaves for work at 2:5pm or 1415 .She has to do some studying so I will go out and have my hair done which since it is so short really is just a trim .Will bring back a couple packaged salads from Krogers ( grocery store ) and have lunch together
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Don't really know what I'll be doing tonite except playing on the machine and watching tv. Not dressing up in anything from THE MARILYN KING COLLECTION or looking so eccentric but more or less like many other people .In a yellow polar fleece top , white T shirt , jeans ,black socks , and sneakers . Tomorow though do plan on dressing up .
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Post by Lena » Wed Nov 15, 2006 12:13 pm
Over 215 views of this thread yesterday ..................
Yipppeee........!! And thank you . :!:
It's cooler and raining here today so my plans for going out in something short and fun have been upset . Dam!! So instead am in a black turtleneck , jean skirt , nude pantyhose , and brown clogs . No bra or undies :twisted: :
: Along with my red rain slicker and the penguin suit and orthies at work tonite . Nicer then usual but functional too.
Todays blog could be called " You Know Your Getting Older When ...." since I had several encounters with younger people from babys to teen-agers that had me feeling despite being short and with the mind of a child ( a disturbed one too :
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But first happy to say despite still being a little sick my gf made it into work and finished her shift
Worried about the patients they had her working intake in the E-room like she thought they wud . According to her it wasn't bad , can get wild on week-ends with all sorts of people walking in . After getting home at 11:45 or pm or so she was soon alseep . I am real proud of her for being so dedicated and tough .
Guess I am getting older since I don't have the patience to deal with the real young ones ones was at a loss of how to deal with some goofy teen-agers . My troubles with the younger generation began when I went out to get my haircut , since I keep it so short and am cheap not wanting to pay 30-40 dollars like certain woman ( like my spendthrift lover :
: ) I always go to a chain at the mall like Supercuts or BoRics where it's only $10 and your in and out in 30 minutes . Being there in the middle of the day usually it's me and the seniors ( yesterday heard the man in the chair next to me whow as about 70 say everything in the world wud be fine if people had to punch in on a clock at work , ?) and little kids too young for school .Yesterday there were about 8 children ranging from babys to 5 years olds who really got on my nerves . Smal childrens don't usually bother me since between my younger sister and nieces/nephews who stayed with us they were always around when I was growing up .Always making alot of noise and running everywhere. The ones yesterday were way to loud and wre runnig all over the place since there moms were too busy gossiping ( all 4 moms were bragging about how there childrens were geniuses and how they the moms were so strict , (not from what this hillbily could tell :roll: ) and ignoring the kids . The hair stylist was getting upset since a few were runing all aroud her station with one even running into her razor cord . Other's were picking up hair from the floor and throwing it everywhere . But I guess it was really the noise that got me . The 7 of them being louder then a stadium full of cheering footbal fans . It was so bad I was starting to get a headache and wanting to get out ASAP . After finishing when I looked forward to just getting out of the noisy play pen and was taking my money out to pay when two louder then loud 5 year olds got in front of me pestering the clerk for candy with one's mom coming over to help them . Moi the paying customer was left standing there with only her headache that was getting worse by he seconds ................ :x The mother couldn't have annoyed me more had she been trying , preoccupying the clerk with all sorts of questions about trans fats and sugar levels in candy .Bet she only did that too to show off to the other moms :x Must say at another time in my life I wud have screamed something mean at her to shut up or just stepped in front of her talking direct to the clerk but didn't , about to explode I waited ,paid and left . I ws sooo happy to get in my car and drive off from the noisy zoo
. The whole experience made sense of the old saying "Children should be seen and not heard ....................."
I came home and my mood was back to normal . We had lunch then Karin left for work .Did the wash ( or worsh as it's called in hillbilly ) and started to get ready to go jogging when our friend Frieda called up asking for a help in a emergency . I've written here about how we helped with the grand opening of her new coffee place and used book store that are right across the hall from each other in a old building by the university . Her server for the coffe boutique had called in sick at the last minute and she neded help real bad and wud even pay so I agreed and little did I know more trouble with the juniors was ahead ............. :roll:
I was met by a real grateful Frieda who in 10 minutes told me what I had to do and was running out the door to pick up her kids at there school and get them to the dentists.Looked simple enough , just work the counter.Not much different frombartending except here I had to bus the tables and mop up . Most of the shift went fine .The bokstore across the hall semed so-so , maybe since the clerk named Curtis was more interested in talking about philosophy with the customers then working .Think he saw me as his intellectual inferior like those eggheads do with most people which maybe true but unlike him at 32 or so I won't be working for miimum wage in a used bookstore !!! The coffee boutique is doing pretty good though , gets alot of university business and is becoming a hub for counter culture types .The walls have photos and paintings on them by local artists for sale( my favaorite was a black & white photo of some little black kids fishing on a river barge ) and many snake plants . Had quite a mix of people over the nite : 2 short heavy set jewish guys who looked awful familier speaking away in what Curtis said was Russian , some hunky UMC type with a sweatshirt for a private school full of rich kids who like the ones at the country club was very nice since thats a value to that bunch ( while saying f u c k you and kiss my white ass is a value to my people :
and middle couple who I think were professors killing time before teaching nite school .The two of them going on all intense like about Wiliam Faulkner a famous southern writer who even I know about .
Along with the usual 6 or so students banging away at there lap tops .
The trouble with kids came at 9pm or so. 5 of them all about 15-16 year old white kids came in being real loud . One boy on his cell phone was really loud & ignorant shouting into it things like " That's Unfucking Believebale!! man " , "F*** me !!" , "Holy S*** man " , and ther real classy ' " F*** me up the ass and leave me red !! " All headed for a table ( with the potty mouth still shouting and swearing away at whatever whoever he was talking to was saying ) :roll: but only one made a actual order and then only for a $ 1.75 soda. I served her then went over to there table where they were all still loud with one girl siting on a guy's lap telling them real nice all had to order something to stay and to be quiet along with telling the girl she had to sit in a chair . You'd think that wud have been enough but two of them started arguing with me asking " Why ?" like I was being unreasonable but kept cool saying to myself thats the way kids can be , I was sure a wiseacre at there age . But moi's patience was going fast While there the phone guy let loose with a stream of swear words like a soldier ( wud have given the nites pay for our old neighbor Mrs .Simms to come in and cure him of his swearing habit like she did with me a longtime ago with a few slaps acrosss the face :x ) so raising my voice I told him to either stop talking like that or he'd have to go . He looked all embaresed and did hang up but another guy there kept nagging me with questions about why I am so bossy and saying I should chill. Told them again to all make a order or they had to go and they did order . But then 4 of the little peckerheads came up to the counter and changed there orders .Then when it came time to pay to be more annoying they tried paying in change making jokes like " I wonder if she can count ? " and " You think her day job is a janitor" ? Then laffing away and being loud .Most of the other customers were drifting out . I was getting real po'dthinking " Who do these little brats think they are ? This is a business not a teen club and I have a real world job to do not bother being there baby sitter"!!Also thought to what immature babys, at there age I was already delivering dope and with my cousin was rolling
guys in bars .
It all came to a head when one of the guys started walking all around the cafe on tables and chairs . I said nothing , kids can be very dangerous but instead stooped down and called 911 telling them we had touble . The one fellow was still going from table to table and his friends shouting when 3 police walked in complete with the steel flashlights they use for head whipping . Seeing them the kids all got quiet and left without making a sound . The cops took there names and ran checks advising them curfew was coming and it was either go home or they'd take them to the detention center ( I've been in detention and know none of those rude little brats could make it there ) .One kid did blurt when he was going out he's never coming back to spend money ( Frieda will be heartbroken to lose a customer who makes $1.75 orders ................. :
: ) I gave the cops free cofffee and rolls which they liked . That'll cut into Frieda's profit margin bu tthe free food will help get the polices back faster the next time . :
:The rest of the nite was peaceful .
Guess despite myself I am turning into a adult . The younger generation semed hard to understand . The little ones at the hair cutters were just too loud and wild . The teen-agers later on were immature , rude, and hostile .They didn't catch on that was business , I was there to work & not be abused , and most of all being out in public they had to behave . Must say am now feeling little stupid for all the ignorant things I did at that age as a result ! :oops
But also am wondering if I am really cut out for motherhood . It really is a demeanding job . Do I have the patience to be around little ones who scream and run around getting themselves in trouble ? Do understand cousin Francie's being so dog tired beat taking care of 5 kids better after those kids at the hair cutters!!
Also how do you handle teen-agers? Like keeping your kids from being like the immature little savages at the cafe last nite ? Or worse yet and heaven forbid doing things like Francie and I were doing at that age like sneaking into bars to find
guys to take there wallets ?
My already tiny along with alcohol and drug soaked brain is reeling at all of that ...........................
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Post by Lena » Thu Nov 16, 2006 1:25 pm
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After seeing the goofy teen-agers at the cafe the other nite teen-agers do realize I should act more mature . I really am getting older and should give more thought to acting that way .I can be be too immature at times.
Still am terrified at the idea of motherhood . Think you have to put more effort into that then anything else ,especially if there's no man or partner involved . If you want to do it right like my old neighbor Mrs. Simms and now cousin Francie it's a real demanding and never ending job. Women who also work( and thats most women nowadays ) have it all the rougher . The idea of doing both at the same time has me tired and wanting to start drinking .......... :roll: Actually do like working and do hope when the time for motherhod comes I will be ready .
This all led me to call my cousin Francie up north yesterday before I went to work to cheer her up . I mentioned the other day how at 26 she's dead tired from having to take care of a husband and 5 kids from 8-16 months . Never has time to chill and gets so nervous about getting everything done she can't even sleep most nites .Caught her at a good time since the 2 older kids are at school and the other were all napping or in front of the tv . Francie sounded tired and stressed but I could tell she was happy to hear from me e talked about alot of things then it went back to whats really her daily struggle . I did my best to encourage her telling her how she's a real life hero and how great it is that she's breaking with the past in our family . With the partial exception ( loves her kids to death but still has things for scummy guys and bars ) of our auntie Lurleen she's the first woman ever to put her kids before having fun and the worthless men they always seem to get involved with .Francie started crying and we talked some more , I think she liked just talking to another adult for a change . We could have talked longer but she had to go , the 3 year old daughter Samara was waking up from her nap. Hope I helped................
Work was uneventful . When I came in as planned picked up a penguin suit at Uniforms but in the locker room saw the other woman bartender Cassady putting on the black cocktail waitress dress and in a mix of almost anger not wanting to look like her dyke sidekick in the unisexual penguin suit and admiring how gorgeous the dress is I went back to Uniforms and got one . Did feel good ! Being spontaneous has gotten me in plenty of trouble over the years but it also can be great fun . It sure was yesterday , especially the leers /lust from a group of yuppie guys Cassady and I got walking across the lobby to the bar .
They had me the bar then at a private party then the bar again . Closed up at 1:15am and was home at 2am . Karin was already sleeping but Fritz the alpha male cat came up to meow at me and lick my had. He slept on both of us most of the nite too.
Karin's off to school (she's working extra hard to make up for the time she lost when so sick last week ) and I'm here at home . Maybe call Francie again to cheer her up some more .Have to see the analyst later then work .Tonite I will be in the bar mostly .
Think the combination of realizing how I should try to act more mature and the real sobering conclusion about how much it takes to be a good parent has me dressing real conservativelly today :
: Do like going out in either my what my gf calls my " Fashion Egocentric ' look or in something provacative to get attention but today want to be a real grown up . So in one of my gf's white blouses along with from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION a red v-neck sweater , pleated black knee-length skirt , nude thigh tops , and black flats with a pointy toe . At work tonite the black cocktail waitres dress and fancier flats .
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Post by Lena » Fri Nov 17, 2006 2:14 pm
Nearly 200 views of this thread yesterday !! FF should start paying me for drawing so many people to this site ! Who wud have ever thought that the comments of a self absorbed hillbilly wud interest so many and from all over the planet too ? :
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Yesterday did call my cousin Francie again to cheer her up but she couldn't talk . Her son's teacher was on the other line and then she had to give the babys a bath .Busy woman ! I did head out in the red v-neck sweater and black pleated skirt looking very grown up .Saw the analyst , that was real intense and in-depth . Basically we're working on purging all the bad stuff my folks especially my father told me .I really was brainwashed to be fatalistic about everything starting with myself . It's all like removing a cancerous tumor but in this case being a psychological tumor . But also to get me nore "cognative " and confident about the here and now .. The cognative therapy stuff where you empower yourself by going back over past things that worked out /successes really helps .Just have to be careful not to use it to tell yourself what you want to hear about things . Unlike most weeks I didn't leave the office exhausted or a emotional wreck but feeling like we're headed in the right direction .
At work wore the black cocktail waitress dress and the shift went allright . The first part with me in the middle of the afternoon in the usually empty bar being real bored was livlier then usual . Had some real live breathing flesh and blood customers .
Including a table full of visiting Japanesse business men ,about a half dozen cops for anti-terorist training at the army base , and a few salesmen . When CNN came on with news about OJ Simpson's bo about how he murdered his wife and her one -nite stand guy everyone got interested . The Japanesse were all excited , to them I think it was another example of the great American freak show . Between OJ , JERRY SPRINGER , the scandel of the day , and this thread foreigners could get the idea we're all psyhos here. :
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Really amazing he wud do all this , who knows maybe someday I'll see my career criminal cousin Gaylord who I have written about in other forums here on tv boosting his book about being a pervert and life in crime . :roll: Although since Gaylord always seems to mess up and pay big time it could actually be funny though :
: Spent most of the evening working a private party then the bar which was steady till about a hour before closing .
Work is slowing down for me and I am starting to panic about not making money .The hotel is alost like a morgue in December since business travel tapers off. Also except for this saturday there are now weddings booked until late January . There'll be some holiday partys but for the most part famine will be here. My friend Bernie in sales tells me there may be some business since the hotel is going to offer all sorts of specials to draw week-end shoppers . Hope it works , can't se too many familys here to buy presents and meeting Santa spending time in the bar though . Inthe past to keep me busy management has had me doing all sorts of ridiculous things . 4 years ago I had to get dressed up in a elf suit and help the Santa they hired pass out presents to the other employee's kids which wasn't easy doing to begin with( really felt like a fool :oops: ) especially with a terrible hangover . Three years ago when we were all still wearing the gold vest-black faux leather mini they had me and one of the cocktail waitresses babysitting a banquet room full of screaming kids from out of town whose folks were here on a shopping tour .I didn't even think about it at the time but it was wierd having two women in clothes that may have been appropriate for the bar ( or a street corner :
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To head off being broke I'm going to get as much OT at the hotel as possible , probably working room service on the graveyard shift . Also wil call up a caterer I have worked for whose always busy this time of year and see what they have at the country club where I already work pt . Karin graduates in december which we're really looking forward too . She'll be making more money and I can also now throw it at her that school is finished she can get a pt job too!! :
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Today have to see my idiot friend Leslie to be custody monitor . Hope it goes better then last week when we first walked into a big fight between her ex and his ice princess gf then avery excited Leslie went on to tell me about her new gangbanger bf and his really wierd sexual tastes. :roll: In keeping with my plan to dress up more am in more clothes from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION . A tan suade jumper that has faux gold chain belt along with a white turtle neck , flesh tone bikini briefs , nude thigh tops , and brown flats with a pointy toe . At work will wear the black cocktail waitress again . ....................
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Post by Lena » Sat Nov 18, 2006 2:19 pm
Am running late this morning , have to get to my real estate course. . Will post later from work .If I can't definitely will post tomorrow.
Since this is the fashion forum today am in a black turtleneck with short sleeves , off-black denim mini , black bikini briefs , bare-legged , and black boots with a 3" heel . At work the black cocktail waitress dress , nude thigh tops ,and black flats .
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Post by Lena » Sun Nov 19, 2006 1:18 pm
Sunday morning here and everything is quiet which is good.The world is too fast paced and we all need time to recharge . Karin worked 3 hours OT last nite ( :x :x :x ,they work my Bleet to hard :x :x :x ) and is still sleeping .Having just eaten there breakfst our cats are taking there morning naps .Cold and cloudy out today , perfect weather for a fire and I have one going now .
Also am working on a cup of coffee and cornbread ...............
It's real quiet which is wonderful , the only noise I can hear is Belinda and Baily next door talking , getting ready to go to services soon .
Moi needs the rest , things have been pretty hectic the last two days . So much has been going on friday morning seems like a jillion years ago :roll: .It'll get intense again when I go to work later today at the country club then when we head out later for some shopping and to some friends for dinner. To tell the truth I'd just as soon skip it all and come back home and put on a robe , make a fire and then chill.....................
Friday did go out in the light brown almost tan suede jumper dress from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION . The neighbors comments were funny : Marie the wonderful 70'ish retiree told me how nice I looked ( she wud remember when women dresed this way ) while Steve the goon upstairs laffed and asked me if I was auditioning for a AUSTIN POWES movie since the outfit was so retro . I smiled for Marie and gave Steve a sarcastic "HAH HAH HAH " but then his jocko macho moronism and went out for coffee. Gave some thought to asking him if he ever got his gf Delores to wear short shorts and boots like he was begging her to do last week but didn't .......... :
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After that hooked up with my friend Leslie for the custody monitor thing . When we picked up baby Grady there was no Nancy at her ex's farm . Don't know if the selfsih old goat and the Bleet's Bleet are even still together .Last week she and Bill had been fighting and this week neither she or her white Range Rover car were around . Bill looked awful too, hadn't shaved in a few days and also looked like he hadn't slept in a few days either .He was gruffer then usual too,making it a point to let us know he'd be picking up the baby in 4 hours and wasn't going to wait ! Baby Grady looked a litlte sad and was to Leslie's delight real happy to go with us . Les pumped him too about Nancy but all Grady wud say was " Nancy is at work in Alawama " ( Alabama ) " which maybe the case or may not be ..............
Even in a track suit Les still looked beter then moi but what else is new ? We did several things and while Grady was in a story hour we talked and again it hit me that Les is acting not just like a idiot trying to relive her early 20's but is really being self destructive . Like a moth to a flame risking losing the rotten 4 hours a week she has to see her son & risking making trouble for our little makeshift family we all made back in middle school , and messing around with some pretty nasty people . And I do mean nasty people ........... :x
Her love life is WILD , still dating 3 guys ( I always cheated but wud have never tryed juggling 3 relationships at the same time , who has the energy ? ) and all three have there issues . She tells me she either fights ( including hitting ) or passionately f u c k s with BE the rail cop and is bored to tears with Mark the finace guys ( who sounds like he makes mega-bank selling investments to city governements ) and wants to get rid of him but is trying to get as many presents and fancy nites out before she does drops him . Listening to her talk going out with the guy who is so generous and nice is some awful experience or disgusting thing they make you do at work like cleaning up after a
got sick and wretched all over the place . She was still real proud letltng me know about the tennis bracelet she coaxed him into buying her.............. :roll: Still is all excited about TJ too , her eyes shine and I can feel the energy in her body when she talks about him :roll: . Like first love almost . I noticed too how she's back to using a lot of black english like we both did coming up in a neighborhod that was about 70% black.. She and TJ ( who I also call Tupac in contempt ) are pretty intense and just had a threesome with one of his lawyers , a woman who sounded like she comes from money and has all sorts of education but is a real jubian princess ( rich jewish woman with a thing for black guys ) with a special thing for hoodlums . Also is very very kinky , while Les was shocked when TJ asked her to put on the plastic thing and go in the back door the jubian princess and he had done it plenty of times before and that day too, also she loved the whole golden showers thing too . Great isn't it , falling for a punk who'll never commit and is also pretty kinky and doing some psycho dilatante whose actually slumming with the both of them ............................. :roll:
Les to backed of from all of our old posse geting togetehr in the next few weeks . I know why too , Corvah wudn't like her messing around with her gangsta brother . Les also seems down on a lot of people .Said she 's happy about when she sees BE they haven't been hanging out with Steve and Delores , even called Delores a lunt (masculine dyke which was nasty and strange too since she once went with a butch for a few minutes ) and saying our other old friend Ronnie Raye is so boring nowadays . Wonder what she's saying about me to others ? Guess we all can't be as cool as a gangbanger and whacko jubian princess................. :roll:Actually it's for the better if we all DON'T meet up .Wud be very icey ..................
They had me in the bar and working a private a party on friday . Wore the black cocktail waitress dress. It became a real intense shift especially after wierd Norm the other bartender at the private party got sick and went home leaving me to handle the whole crowd . Saturday ( in a black short sleeved turtleneck and of black denin mini and black boots )went to my real estate sales class ( about half the class has droped out since last week :shock: ) then to work where I also wore the black cocktail waitress dress . . In the bar then a big wedding with Cassady .Had some interesting customers : a amazing woman in her 40's who came from nothing , had been walked all over by some rotten men , and was a mom and granny way to soon but some how went to school and is now a vp of a big Japnesse company's operations here in America.Also a soldier who was a immigrant from Russia who fought there army in Afganistan in the '80's and now just got back from fighting in our army there too. And ( another sign of my own terrible judgenment about men ) a owner of the SUPERCUTS barbershop chain who stupid moi thought was actually retarded ................. :oops:
Today am in a dark brown turtle neck , lite brown with paisly like shell pattern granny dress, nude pantyhose, and my unstylish but comfy brown boots with a 1" heel..................At the country club again there Kelly green jumper dress & white blouse. Wearing my new brown flats to to help brek them in .
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Post by Lena » Mon Nov 20, 2006 12:43 pm
185 hits here yesterday ............................
My day off, it's cold and dark but we intend to fight back and have a good time today . It's my day of so it'd be a sin to not to try to enjoy it .Got dressed up in a have -fun oufit that was also easyest to wear since I didn't have to iron anything : dark green turteneck , jean short shorts and ,suntan pantyhose . When we go out my brown boots with a 3" heel . Hopefully part of the fun will be getting looks off lust from p***s people at least and if I am truly lucky from other dykes .No big plans except the grocery store.
Life can be intersting , like I posted in MEMBERS I wasn't first in line when looks were handed out but have never had better luck with men when I'm with another woman . Althougth the guys can sometimes be real doughballs . :cry: It happened twice this week-end . At my pt job at the country club some really immature guy about 17 asked me out . He's a real over-grown spoiled child even for that place where none of the kids seem to work ( and if they do it's for daddy ) and have everything like there own SUV's and new clothes . This boy is real loud and hyper and always seems to be trying to show off or one up everyone his own age . If he'd been a nice guy I wud have been nice about saying NO but since he's such a obnoxious little pisshead I laffed .He didn't like it too much .......... too bad , so sad :
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Work at the country club except for the spolied rich kid asking me out was the same as always . I walked around int he cheery Kelly green dress smiling and repating over and over again but with a big smile on my face with pretend entuhsiam in my voice " Would anyone like some champagnme or can I get you something else ? " With the richies being friendly no matter what they wanted , most stick with champagne only . Maybe it's some unwritten rich people's rule about brunches that you don't hit the hard stuff or sink to the level of ordering beer ?
The table talk can be funny and a real education for a hick like moi who'd never been out of Lawrence county till she was 10 : two 40 something women were talking all elitest like about how they skip "American " hotels when in Paris and stay at cozy local places .Turned into a real competition with one woman saying how there "quaint little hotel " was right by some " fantastic boutiques where the staff speak english " and how from there room they could see the Eifel tower.The other went on to brag how there hotel was run by a " wonderful elderly French woman " making her sound like she was a house pet there for the guest's amusement and there room had a view of this old Roman ampitheter .........( that was good though since when I got home checked on the net learned despite being from Rome the Romans ran Paris and even part of the UK thousands of years ago ) Two 50 something men were talking about college tuition at the beter schols ofcourse ( theres people see most state & city colleges as a waste of time :roll: ) with them saying how Harvard last year was $ 50,000 and Duke was $40, 000 for tuition and living expenses. The funniest thing though was one man about 60 talking to a guy about 30 about money with the older man saying "You don't need to tell me about about being poor , a man with a wife , three chidren in school , two servants , six cars ,three homes and a boat knows all about financial pressures ! " :
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After work came home and waited for my gf to get back from here mom's so we could head over to our friends Lonnie and Cindys for dyke nite .Along with being angry then laffing at the call from Fred "I Didn't Do It " Mc Kay . :
: But I began to feel bad, first with a upset stomach then real bloated with coughing .Followed up by a congested head and runny nose . When Karin got back she noticed how my face was all red and I looked really bad. After taking some asprin and Maalox I was soon asleep but kept waking up off and on all nite till about 2am when I was finnally able to sleep .Since she'd worked OT the day before Karin was soon cooping out . I got up about 7am and feel alot better .
Was worried I was coming down with the strep throat my gf had last week but seems now it wasn't .................phew!!
Have to be around here again in the dark green turtleneck and jean short shorts then this afternoon we head out for errands ........wish me luck getting attention .
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Post by Lena » Tue Nov 21, 2006 1:58 pm
230+ hits here yesterday !!! Hope you all liked reading about the snotty little rich boy at the country club & Fred " I Didn't Do It " Mc Kay who both hit on me . Funny how there about 10 years apart in age with one from money while one is from the slums but both are completely selfish thinking they are entitled to everything and about as likeable as a reptile. Along with my upset stomach and head cold .AND ........with ofcourse me in a tight turtleneck , jean short shorts and boots! :
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Certainly did try yesterday but I'll get to that ahead . It did feel nice to sort of dress up in the turtleneck and shorts . I wear jeans so much and ofcourse a uniform 6 days a week it's always feels good to wear something different whether it's the eccentric but obviouslly sexual outfit like I wore yesterday or the classic clothes from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION . Spent part of the day around the apartment doing things like paying bills ( ouch!!! ) and doing wash . I thought about making a fire but after paying so much money out I decided to skimp ( I figured out how it costs $4 to have a fire between the plastic log that gets it started and the wood ) and skip the fire. Will have one tonite though .
Watched the news too . Yippee , the sleazy Rupert Murdoch decided to cancel the OJ book and tv shows where he tels ( or really acts the wise ass) and says how he wud have killed his ex and her bf had he done it with the big joke being everyone knows he did do it .Guess all the public anger about it was too much even for the likes of Murdoch . Hope someday OJ smacks around some other woman and she shoots him dead .Sad to say saw Michael Richards from SEINFELD on tv. Was performing at a club and some blacks were being rude but he went a few steps further and started calling them all sorts of swear words and racist names . I guess like alot of us he overreacted to provocation and lost it . Hurt himself more in the end by being such a fool .Too bad , he was so funny on that show .
Later Karin came home ( a little manic from a intense lab and being caught in a 30 minutes traffic jam ) and after she had a
to calm down we headed to the mall . Was real nice , all the decorations are up , people are out , and the stores were busy . Since this is the home of Fort Knox there soldiers everywhere and yesterday there.So being a patriotic woman and desperate attention seeker I bent over twice to stick my booty right in there faces . :
: I knew right awy it got there attention since the guys who had been talking went quiet and stayed that way . Am 110% positive they were also exchanging grins . So wanting to be extra nice I did it the second time . We headed of in opposite directions but I could tell the guys were looking toward me to see if there was any more of my ass show ................. :
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We stopped off for dinner ( at my insistance we hit the early bird special when prices are lower ) and ran into a nurse Karin works with .Even though Karin is open about being gay the woman was surprised to see us holding hands . Oh well , life is full of surprises. What did she think , dykes don't get affectionate with each other ? :
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Today have to do some more errands and call into work . Am wondering what they have me doing Thanksgiving which is this thursday . May work or have my hours cut back since it has always cost more to keep the bar open on holidays then it brings in .I certainly make no tips and get bored and sometimes depressed being alone with nothing to do in a big empty room .
Am in a black dress with real cute teeny dots . Looks nice , has a sweetheart neck and short sleeves. In white bikini briefs and bare-legged . Also probably my new black flats with pointy toes .
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Post by Lena » Wed Nov 22, 2006 3:03 pm
Not too much to say today , sorry . Even my fast paced , thrill a minute life has slow periods . :
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Yesterday was one of those days in your life that come and goes without anything really happening . Loved the black dress with the teeny dots , it's really a summer dress but looks so good I had to wear it once more time before sticking it in the closet till spring . Too bad it was cold , it wud have been fun to go commando and barefoot in it .Talk about "fashion egocentric " , looked very interesting with my old black leather motor cycle gang jacket when I went out :
: . We're still laffing about the call asking me out on sunday from Fred " I Didn't Do It " McKay , although Karin is the jealous kind who I think if given the chance wud empty a revolver into him . :
: .Our big joke about things whether it was me leaving the soap in the sink ( a federal crime to her ) or Karin not mailing the satellite tv bill in on time has been to all dead pan or in a shocked " How dare you accuse me of that " way has been to deny it saying " I didn't do it " ...........If anyone reading this gets in trouble at work or home feel free to stare at your accuser and in a pretend really sincere way just say " I didn't do it " !
When I went out did some errands then went to my Adult Children of Alcoholics support group . I've been doing this for over 2 years and think I have gotten all I can from it .The storys are all the same by now and I think the time could be spent on other areas . Other areas need work .Like AA that the court made me go to for too many
driving arrests at 19 the group can be real diverse and close . Yesterday there was a short fat black lady about 50 who I don't think had $5 on her , a real smart looking college student ,a big macho guy about 30 who I am sure is a soldier, and a 40' s something who woman with blond hair and blue eyes in a pricey NORTH FACE ski jacket who I saw drive up in her Toyota Sequoia SUV that costs something like $ 55,000.The storys all involved being hurt since the folks drank to much . Like mine sometimes involving violence .But thats the past that can't be changed and I do understand that .Have to work on being too scared to try and defeatism now since there the key to the present and future.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving , a big national holiday . I'll write about my feelings on it tomorrow . We have to work and will miss dinner at my gf's aunties . The hotel bar will be closed since like I wrote there's just under a 8% occupancy rate and you hardly ever see a customer on holidays in the bar . The hotel won't even pay me . It's OK though since holidays in the bar are no fun . The few customers that make it in can really drain you since there usually in sad shape being alone and depressed. too . Instead I'm working at the country club where there having a 12pm -6pm or 1200-1800 Thansgiving dinner for the members . Don't know whether I'll be bartending or waitressing but either way it's money we neeed .
Today Thanksgiving Eve has been my own special holiday since I was 13 .For most of those years I have always found myself having some kind of fun tonite .One year it was going to a movie with my gf at the time then heading to a bar talking for hours in front of the open fire while another year it was geting very
and dancing up a storm at the late great BRASS MONKEY BAR . But like I said it all began when I was 13 and I am now getting real sentimental about those early times .
Back then the schools wud let out at noon and my posse and I wud head out looking for fun . Except for Corvah no one's mom cared where you were if you were back home by daylite. We did all sorts of crazy things like go to other kids places and watch MTV ,smoke , gossip , and get high . When we could latch onto some guys who could drive we'd go all over town .Sometimes we got them to buy us dinner too .Although for some reason those guys always wanted some loving ( and usually got like the blow job at 15 I gave one guy while we were at a red light , :oops: ) for being so nice/useable . Drove around alot later when the girls started getting licenses too . Wud find a diner and talk for hours , hit the malls some times even paying for what we took . Although that was for stuff like small cosmetics , the big stuff was always a "gift " . At a department store my cousin Francie once took 3 dresses into the changing room and put them all on then Corvah and I pulled the fire alarm and everyone hearing the fire alarm go off all the staff and customers ran all panicing out the door , including Francie with our three dresses . :
: But both at the time and now looking back the best part was us all being together ,our little family of bad but good or naughty but nice girls who could count on each other .BTW , I'm both weeping and smiling as I type this ..................
Have to go to the dentist later this morning . Liked dressing up so eccentric but sexual the other day am doing it again today too. In a black turtleneck along with the same jean short shorts and suntan pantyhose from monday .No boots but instead the new black flats with the pointy toes .At work the sexy black cocktail waitress dress to help keep my morale up inthe face of boredoom . It's always fun looking like a femme fatale and while I will be bored out of my mind at least I'll know that I look mighty fine ................
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Post by Lena » Thu Nov 23, 2006 3:26 pm
Its Thanksgiving ! One of my favorite holidays of all.
Looking back yesterdays post may have given the wrong idea about my own past Thanksgiving Eve's . Am afraid the talk of shoplifting and giving face to a stranger at a red lite may have given the idea we were always up to no good .There sure were some wild times but as I also say we also did plenty of other legal things like watching MTV ,talking, and dancing The best thing of alwas being with my friends , really was and still am closer to them then my mother and sisters .They may not have been angels or the sharpest axes in the shed but they liked and respected me .
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Yesterday did head out in the turtleneck and jean short shorts along with black flats with pointy toes to break them in more ,there still kinds of stiff.Went to dentist , never even been to a dentist till I was 16 and had to get emergency root canal work , the pain there was horrible . Surprising a little tooth could do all that and it also spread to a year and that was just as awful .Now I pay $300 a year in dental insurance and make it a point to get all the plan allows . Had a cleaning and exam , they found a cavity and drilled . Posted in MEMBERS how it felt wierd to have a shot in my mouth so there'd be no pain seeing smoke come out of my mouth as the dentist drilled away .
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At work decided not to wear the penguin suit but instead wore the sexxy black cocktail waitress dress which did indeed help make a very boring shift more tolerable . At least I looked sexxy standing there almost always alone during my 10 hour shift . All totalled I had 11 customers with three being hotel employees .My tips for the nite came to a huge $12.55 :x Only the top level managers are allowed to be in the bar for socializing ( we have to report anyone else or we'll be fired ) but last nite I had Marisol whose the ass't manager of Housekeeping , her bellman bf Gilbert along with Bernie from sales who is one of my buddys at work I've mentioned Marisol here before , she's the idot daughter of a corporate vp who has drug and psych isues and drooped out of colege .Daddy shipped her here to I guess figure things out .Marisol may have her problems but she's real pretty being very dark and exotic since her mom is mexican and her dad came here as a little boy from Greece where from what I've seen all seem born with black hair and a permanent tan Sinc eher dadd's a corporate vp though the rules don't apply to Marisol ( she's done plenty of other things from have sex and also get in a huge shouting match with Gil as well as cry to get her way with the Housekeeping manager Mr . Fletcher that wud get anyone else fired too) and it spreads to whoever she's with ,namely Gilbert whose a good enough bellman but known to have a bad temper.She was talking to Bernie about moving from Housekeeping to his sales team . He was real nice but after knowing him for years now I could tell Bernie didn't want her onboard .The tab said something about her : they had 6 drinks between them with Marisol and Bernie each having one but Gilbert downing four expensive cognacs and she didn't even pay or leave a tip .Just walked out like she was royalty . :roll: I told my boss Brendan who said it was allright then smiled saying " See why I blackballed her from working with us ? " I laffed and hugged him .
Later saw Brendan and Bernie talking in the lobby ( real cute in and of itself since there from totally differnt backgrounds but we're all here togetehr , Brendan from Ireland and Bernie a jewish guy from NYC ) and they were laffing about the complications /perils of dealing with a corporate vp's daughter who is a headcase ............. :
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Since the bar was emptier then little georgey's head we closed early at 11pm or 2300 . Security walked me thru the empty lobby across the empty street to the almost empty parking garage . On the way home I got to thinking about past Thanksgiving eves and the idea came to me to drive by some places I'd been on those wonderful nites . Not to many were nearby since we lived in the West end and now I'm a east ender but still went past a all -nite diner where the bitches and I discussed all sorts of things in the middle of the nite , a generic gas station where we once filled up the tank and drove off without paying ( :oops: I'm giving the wrong impression again :oops: ) , and a bar I was at a few years ago on what was the worst blind date of my life that I can laff about now . :
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Back home my gf was waiting being totally exhausted herself with a huge coffee mug full of red wine . Too much running around all nite at the hospital and she was very grateful they didn't make her stay overnight . The cats were funny , Fritz climbed on karin's lap and Agatha who was sleeping came up and rubbed against my legs as if to say " I love you " ......................
Today go to the country club to work . After that we'll head someplace for leftovers or second hand food as I call it . Do have alot to actually be thankful for this year , starting with Karin , buying the apartment , our vacation to Canada , along with the progress in therapy .
Heading out in a lite grey sleeveles v-neck sweater and lite blue shirt from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION , tan corduroy shirt , nude support hose ( I think there thicker then the sweater ) :roll: and clogs . At the country club where I will do my pretend smiley face best to please the rich people there Kelly green jumper and white blouse uniform ...................
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Post by Lena » Fri Nov 24, 2006 1:45 pm
Friday but it feels like saturday , the country is still in holiday mode . It's the biggest shopping day of the year , the stores will be packed with shoppers spending money like there is no tomorrow .Bet it's the same in the UK and Australia too.It's fun seeing the happy crowd but at times like this love the idea I am so cheap and a shopping phobe since it makes me immune to it all. . :
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Am absolutely exhausted this morning from work yesterday . The country club Thanksgiving dinner was big success, too big a success for moi .Leaving me dead tired or in hillbilly " ded tard " .The holiday dinners are big events , almost like a family reunion . The general manager of the club and his wife are always there glad handing the members . He's a nice guy , about 60 and a retired army colonel .His wife is a real southern lady type , always nice and gracious to everyone .Although I hear she can be a vicious tennis player ! :
: Good to have the general manager around to since the actual restaurent manger can be a bossy little dick and having the boss around keeps him from getting obnoxious with us . We did have to act like soldiers and stand at inspection though ( 6 women in Kelly green jumpers ,white blouse , and smiles ) along with 4 busboys in white coats ( all illegal aliens with only one speaking english ) being told to always smile and be friendly and have a "can do " attitude about doing there jobs like we were all going into battle.. . Some of the women were actually inspired , maybe I'm too cynical to get that way . Running around and being nice to me is just part of the job . We were got to eat before the dinner although no drinking whichI hated since to me alcohol is about half the meal , :x Although having worked
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Right away the dinner was a big success . The members and guests started showing up at the start and like a fast moving river kept a coming and a coming all day .The richies were all friendly and jovial .Ofcourse since they've got the bank why wouldn't they be ? I kept wondering if any of the women even knew how to cook since all there lives they were able to pay people to do that ? Between smiling and pouring champagne saw the general manager glad handing all the members and talking about rich people things like the annual pheasant hunt coming up , the best custom tailor in town to have a suit made at ( wondered too if any were the tailors that made some of the custom clothes years ago in the MARILYN KING COLLECTION ? :
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: The restaurent manager was another story . He was being all nice to the members but in the kitchen looked absolutely manic like the planet was collapsing into a big ball of fire.. Bet he drank alot when he got home ! It was planned to go from 1300 to 1730 but almost twice as many showing up as had been expected . The crowd showing up all day leading them to add another 2 hours to the dinner along with almost running out of turkey ( they had to send a cook over to two hotels to buy the turkeys and stuffing they had left over from there less successful dinners) along with to buy more champagne since the crowd really was drinking away like there was no tomorrow .
Naturally all of us were working real hard . Two of the servers got really stresssed out , one said she hyper ventalates when she gets upset/too nervous and when she felt it coming on had to leave making more work for the rest of us . I was always running and running around pouring champagne . The hardest part was having to be friendly all the time , really can be hard work having to smile and listen to everyone when you start feeling stressed and worry about blurting out something like " Here's your champagne , I'll be back with more in a few minutes, don't f*cking bother me I'm too busy to f*cking care !!!" I actually did come close to a panic attack when about 4pm or 1600 when I went in the cooler and saw we were down to our last 4 bottles of champagne . Knew we were going thru the stock pretty fast but had been too busy to notice how fast ( or maybe I didn't notice do to all the glue , dope , and alcohol I've done :yikes: ? ) The restaurent manager was paniced hearing that and after looking frozen for a minute ran out the door to run to a store to pick up more champagne so the rich wudn't have to go without ( :
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It all worked out in the end . The last members left at just before 2000 and we all got to leave .Before we left though the general manager was nice enough to tell us what a god job we'd done and even let us all have a
( in my case I made the exception of having 3 drinks , bartenders privilige or so I told myself :
: ) .Some of the women and all the busboys took home food left over from tables but I passed. I have been known to
beer from pitchers left by others at bars but do draw the line at eating second hand food .By then half -dead and with aching feet and back put my regular clothes on and stumbled out the employeee 's entrance . Being so beat the 30 minute drive home seemed to take hours . After getting home checked in here , called my favorite cousin up north , and plopped down on the couch .Gave some thought to making a fire but was soon asleep . My gf woke me up when she got home from work at midnite .
We're going to go look at the shoppers and stop by my gf's brother's before work .Real low key look today , lite grey sweat shirt , white T shirt , and my falling apart jeans and clogs . At work probably the penguin suit and orthies.
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Post by Lena » Sat Nov 25, 2006 1:47 pm
260 hits here in 24 hours ? WOW!!!!! A few people had to have read most all the thread or we had alot of readers ! Thank you , thank you, thank you !! How can I thank you all ? Hmmm, OK I'll come out and tell about the time just two weeks before my 16th birthday when I with my cousin Francie , Damian Simms who was 18 all got caught taking a shower together (and breaking several boundrys in the process about family and interracial sex since Damian is black ) ) by his no-nonsense auntie ( Damian and his brother called her THE TERMINATOR :
: ) who for some reason got real mad & even banned us from the house !!!
Oh well , we were all young and only experimenting . Auntie Bertniece soon forgave Francie ( since Francie is so pretty :x ) and put the blame all on moi . :cry: If I had brests I bet she wud have forgiven me too......... :cry: :
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Not much else to say today . All we did yesterday is go by Karin's brother's house for a little visist and to plan the holidays . Since there dad is sick Karin's brother Phil and his wife Denise are going to have everything this year . I get along with them real well, there pretty accepting of us . There good people who want to do the right thing .They have two kids who are being raised with alot of love and attention . Must admit I can get jealous of these innocent little ones wishing I'd had the same upbringing that there getting :cry: .Hope too I can do as good a job as a parent as Phil and Denise do too .Denise was pretty funny to making a joke how everyone will be able to relax more at there place too since Karin's mom being such a neat freak can put everyone on edge by runnig around all the time making sure your using coasters and picking up anything no matter how small it is off the floor when things are at the folk's house.. Denise saying that her mother -in-law will be able to have more fun too since she won't feel the need to be the guardian angel of cleanliness and neatness too. :
: Had to leave soon thogh since we all were on schedules.. In the everyone -is -always busy world we all live in they had to get there 4 year old to a birthday party , Phil was heading to his pt job , and we had to get to work ourselves .
The town was jumping with shoppers and we did stop at the coffee boutique which was packed with some of those shoppers taking a break from spending money and running up there cc debt ( heard on the radio on the way how cc debt is skyrocketing here ) and were lucky to get a small table . A line of people waiting for them started almost right after we sat down . Was nice taking a break from being hectic , the 45 minutes or so we were there was fun .There are times when Karin says something smart or funny or I even just lo at her and realize how much I love her .
I had one of those times yesterday just seeing her stirring her coffee. Young queers in love......................
Work itself was anything but hectic . The hotel was at just under 8% and the place felt like a ghost town .At one point I walked out into the lobby and no one was around and got the creepy feeling of being all all alone in the great big building .There were no guests sitting there like there always are and no one at the front desk either. But just as I was about to run screaming from the place one of the Housekeeping popped up and I was real relieved . Wore the penguin suit and orthies .Worked all alone not having a cocktail waitress . They have the Irish women here on contract doing other jobs, mostly waitressing in the either the family or wanna -be classy "gourmet "restaurent .Cocktail waitresses Siobhan and Mary Francies did come in and out of the bar all nite for
orders being almost my only contact with other during the shift .Siobhan looking very domestic in the family restaurent uniform of a black with white pinstripes jumper dress and white blouse with Mary Francis ( who is as pure as the driven snow and as green as lettuce too ) looking more sohisticated in the over-priced wanna-be classy "gourmet " restaurent server uniform that is a very tailored black tuxedo.My friend Bob in security came in . He's real busy studying for finals at law school .He always looks real tired and stressed at exam times with deep red blood shot eyes from reading all the time . In total violation of the rules about no drinking on the job ( :
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but he passed ( he's real responsible ) settling for coffee. The poor guy told me how he works 8 hours a day , goes to school about 4 hours a day , and studys the rest of the time . Says he hasn't had much time for his fiance Julia and feels bad about that . I understand , we feel the same way about being caught up with things at the expense of being with each other too. I smiled and told him some flowers may be a good way to let Julia know he's thinking about her . She'd understand
Especially since she also worked a full time job and went to law school at the same time .Bob picked up and then went behind the bar to to use the phone to order some flowers for Julia .
That was more or less the highlite of last nite . My boss Brendan was the MOD and while busy with a accounting problem at the front desk dropped into talk . He also trys being careful about the visits since everyone knows he and his wife and I are old friends ( we all worked together and got fired at the same time at the MARRIOTT , talk about a bonding experience :
: !! ) and doesn't want to give any backstabbers ammo to use against either of us . He is the one who really has the most to worry about , anyplace I have ever worked I have gotten the idea that most managers ( not Brendan ) try to advance by backstabbing each other then they do being good at there jobs . He did tell me that a man who is what amounts to the state executioner was staying at the hotel that nite .That was strange to hear but I guess if they have the death penalty they have to have someone to run it . Wonder if when he was a little boy in grade school when the teacher asked all the children what they wanted to be when they grew up he said " the guy who executes people " ?
Thats about all for today . It's not exactly indian summer but it is warmer and sunny outside today . Later this morning we're going to go for a big walk and enjoy the nice weather . Am in my oversized navy blue check shirt along with a black skirt . Bare-legged and will wear brown clogs . At work tonite will be suffering thru the boredoom in the penguin suit , black socks , and the orthies .
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Post by Lena » Sun Nov 26, 2006 2:52 pm
200 hits here yesterday !! I guess nothing like hearing about a 15 year old and a 16 year old girl in the shower having a threesome with a guy can draw the readers ! They were both great lovers too. Don't recall I disappointed them either !
Francie later went with Damian's brother Jackie who was our age . Guess the fact big brother had done his gf could get on Jackie's nerves but it all worked out . Everyone understood it was all just lust .......... :
: I also slept with Jackie too but not with my cousin along. I always liked him and wanted to get back at Francie for something I can't even remember now so I did him a few times . :oops: :
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We're all cool with it now . Just part of growing up and believe you me compared to some of the stuff that went on in that neighborhood it was nothing .Everyone now has someone special and a stable life . Francie may be having a hard time raising 5 kids but does have a man who loves here and who works . Damian just got to be a officer in the marines and is married to a wonderful woman ( think cut from the same cloth as his aunte Bertniece THE TERMINATOR since she's also a marine officer ), Jackie ( who was a marine too ) is working on a MBA here and is marrying a wonderful woman named Deidre and I have Karin
. BTW auntie Bertniece still hates me . Made it a point at Damian's wedding reception to always call me M'linda which is my real first name which she knows I don't like or use anymore ( Lena is my middle name which I've been using as a first name since 18 ) and when she saw one of Damian's marine buddys ( a white guy too and she was not known to like our race either :
: ) trying to hit on me the old girl not just warned him not to but did it in a real nasty way too :x . Saying in a sweet way but with it still dripping with disgust something like " Now young man you wouldn't want to take a girl like that home to meet your mother .What wud she say ? :yikes: " I could almost hear the old RICK JAMES song SUPERFREAK in the background withthe lyrics " she's a very nasty girl , the kind you wouldn't take home to mother " :
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: . Jackie's fiance Deidre thought I was going to blow up but instead I just laffed . Saying how looking back as wild and as bad a influence as I was I can't blame her and any attention is good attention
. Deidre who had been more formal then friendly up to then laffed and suddenly became a friend .
BTW , although auntie Bertniece may hate me ( also as a kid she called me the "hillbily devil girl " :
: ) considering the great job she did with Damian and Jakie along with there older sister Marlene if I am ever have kids and can afford it I'd hire her as a nanny in a heartbeat .Although we'd have to work it out she couldn't call me the hillbily devil girl or now hillbilly devil woman , at least in front of the kids........................... :
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Yesterday sort of came and went .The temperature almost hit 70 so we were able to go for a 2 hour walk before work .It was real nice , there were all sorts of people out and everyone seemed friendly due to the combination of the weather and the holiday I think .
Felt very free and relaxed just walking down the street looking at her, the old houses , people a,nd the jillion dogs . A added benefit for me as a career barefooter was that being so warm I was able to go barefoot most of the walk .
Work was a giant bore. Wore the penguin suit and orthies . The hotel was only at 4% , about the lowest I have ever known it to be .The whole building feels empty .The number of people working is down too. Food in the employee cafeteria is worse then normal . Jail food was actually better then what they've been serving us lately, last nite when it was suppposed to be Sloppy Joes ( hamburger meat and a meat sauce all mixed up ) but there was hardly any meat and the sauce was terrible . Max the building engineer started calling it " slop " instead which really fit . After a few bites I stopped eating . Even the soda was watery being more colored water then anything .Had all of 11 customers in 10 hours and left with $9.33 in tips , I don't know what I'l do with all that money :
: . No one to talk to really . The MOD was Russ from the Front Desk ( who thinks he's above all of us hourly paid employees ) made two drop-ins then leaving as soon as I told him everything was allright . :roll:
I guess the highlites were my friend Bob in security stoping in before he left at 1500 to thank me for the idea of sending his neglected fiance some flowers and how she really liked them .
Also hearing from Cedric the bellman who I went to high school with about today's big gossip topic of the rocky
of the bellman Gilbert and manager Marisol . The hotel has always been one giant gossip mill and at this point nothing surprises me anymore so I let the talk go in one ear and out the other .But Cedric made it all sound so delicious at least at first so I listened . And that relationship is rocky indeed !!! Cedric says they have alot of passion for each other but the problem is both have hair trigger tempers ( he's a angry jerk to begin with whose had confrontations with a few other employees already and she's a spoiled child who I hear from others who ALWAYS wants her own way) so there can never be any compromise between 'em and those tempers go off real easy leading to shouting matches and fights :roll: I told Cedric it's all to much for moi , people like that should just grow up if it's possible or go there seprate ways to get away from living like that or maybe one killing the other like in the OJ case.. He agreed which led to nostalgaing about a couple we knew alot like that back at Shawnee High and all the trouble they made for themselves with that getting us on to talking about happier things like how his brother just got hired at FEDERAL EXPRESS ( where my Bleet Corvah works , he remembered her too
) and how his gf is preggars .
Today it's nice again but instead of being able to hang out with my gf ( whose locked in the other bedroom studying away for her last finals ) and go for another big walk I have to work at the country club again .My second time this week , the girl from the hills and slums jumping back into the world of the rich people !! I feel so honored :
: ! Am going in wearing a lite grey v-neck sweater and white shirt from the MARILYN KING COLLECTION along with a khaki skirt , nude support pantyhose ( thicker then regular hose with a reinforced heel and toe too ) , and my Scholls .Once there ofcourse the white blouse and Kelly green jumper...............
After work my gf's folks are taking us out for dinner which is real nice of 'em .I've gone from being the family scandel to being part of the family .To placate them before meeting I'll take of the brown leather strap I always wear on my left ankle . Do know while they may like me and are accepting of us for now at least in there hearts they long for a good looking p***s person with bank to marry there daughter. Oh well , life is no rose garden and nothing will ever be perfect ,have to appreciate what you have ............
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Post by Lena » Mon Nov 27, 2006 2:20 pm
Life goes on ....................
The tv is real depressing this morning . As usual more bad news about the disaster in Iraq . Things don't look to good in Afganistan either .Also heard one of my favorite c & w singers is very sick with the big C . There big scandels about police killing people too , think it was in Florida they gunned down a 92 year old woman who may or may not have been shooting at them . And in NYC the police killed a guy out with friends for his bachelor party . The poor girl , she was planning to be married that day and had to instead deal with the loss of her fiance . Just saw Mary-Kate and Ashley Olson on tv and inspite of all there money and fame they look terrible . Mary-Kate seems real depressed/worn out while Ashley also looks depresed /worn out and you can tell she's a anorexic . :roll: Almost makes me want to go back tot he days of being happily ignorant about anything /everything that didn't have anything to do with moi . :roll:
Monday and I am thankfully off work .Not a bad day outside either , a little cloudy but still alot warmer then normal . Just packed my student off to school , exam time is right around the corner for her so things are going to get real intense real soon .
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: This wil be the end since she gets her BS degree this month . No more studying and tuition at least for another year when it all starts again when she goes back to get a MA in pharmacy . :
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Yesterday was the typical day at the country club . I smiled alot and poured alot of champagne .The rich people all smiled and were real gracious . The rest of the staff were talking about how busy it was on Thanksgiving Day and it was really busy like I wrote here . Everyone had there own little horror story of being rushed with almost all saying they were dead tired at the end .. :
: Then again if they want to see something busy they should come to the hotel during the Kentucky Derby when I feel like we're dealing with a wild mob .There was a good crowd at the country club yesterday too. My gaydar went off seeing one table with two college age dykes about 18 .If my queer's sixth sense wasn't good enough seeing them holding hands under the table cinched it :
: . From what I could tell they had come home from VANDERBILT which I hear is the best university in the south for the holiday . Wonder if the conservative and rich looking folks have figured it out there little girl is messing around with another female ? :
: Hope they can accept it when they do figure it out . I work there again tomorrow since the regular bartender is off and we need the money .
After work came home and met my gf then her folks soon came over to go out for dinner . They made not be the most fun loving and relaxed people out there but seeing how it's almost exam time they were trying to be extra nice to there daughter which is pretty cool .Think with all the trouble with there youngest daughter Diane & her double doughball husband and Brad being so sick they also wanted to spoil Karin a little too
To be honest I can get jealous about that but always tell myself it wasn't my fault no one cared about me and besides there's nothing can do about it now or could have even back then since both my folks only cared about themselfs .The sting goes away a bit after hearing Karin complain how her mom was so domineering but in a "I'm only trying to help way " and how she alway tryed to have anything /everything always be perfect .
They were real nice , took us to THE OLIVE GARDEN , part of a chain of Italian restaurents . Brad looked relaxed , was even in jeans. Diane was as relaxed as she can be , in a two tone track suit ( we swear she ironed it before coming which had to have been real hard since it looked like it was made of rayon or something like that ) with her lacquered on hair and make-up . Mostly they talked about family stuff with me being quiet .Both the folks did get around to asking me how things were going which was nice of 'em . Hope they meant it and at least they did try being friendly .Only brief talk about Diane jr. and her jerk-off husband : sad to say there still back together :cry: . We all came back to our place so they could see it , ran into Marie in the lobby who was good enough to tell them how nice we are and I think to build me up saying how I brought her grocerys in the other day .
both said the place looked great but true to form when seing the empty bedroom where Karin studys Diane seemed a little upset asking Karin how she can get any work done in such a awful mess .............. the awful mess being typical for most students of a empty coffee cup and some notebooks , pens & markers ,a unemptyed waste paper basket , and print outs on the desk along with a few of Karin's million text books on the floor .Oh horror of horrors !!! :yikes:
We both laffed at that after they left . :
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I'm going to chill around the homestead for awhile then do shopping and TT my friend Leslie about being custody monitor this week . I am sure I'll hear something interesting since she's gong with 3 guys at the same time ! :
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Since it's warmer am in one of my favorite dresses thats made for the summer .Has a black tank top and a dark brown paisly skirt . No undies but instead off brown pantyhose . When I go out my clogs and jean jacket .
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Post by Lena » Tue Nov 28, 2006 1:43 pm
Almost 9 am and am headed out running soon . My student is already up and sitting in the empty bedoom in her pj's studying away .Unless I want to get screamed at or have a pen thrown at moi will leave her alone in there to pour over the books for her upcoming exams :
: . The cats are taking there morning naps after being fed , I declare they live better then most people on the planet . :
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It'll be another warmer them normal day here but cloudy which I love . The clouds will give some atmosphere , sunny days can be too bland . Am in a old man's u-neck t shirt now ( a left over from a past relationship with one of those p***s people :
: ) and pj bottoms . But since it wil be nice out am going out in a jean mini along with white turtle neck thats ribbed . A nice sporty outfit . Along with nude pantyhose ( will set a record 9 th wears with these support hose today
) and my new brown flats with pointy toes .Have to see the analyst then work at the country club . There in the happy white blouse-Kelly green jumoer dress uniform .I'll be bartending which should be interesting . I 've only worked week-ends and holidays there before but now will see how things work at the little rich people's retreat duuriing the work week . Wonder if they'll all still be so jovial and gracious like they are at the brunches and partys ?
Not much happened yesterday , about the only interesting thing was a sad phone talk with my friend Leslie which I'll get to ahead . Went out in my tank dress and jean jacket . Do love that dress , it's comfy and I feel so free in it
. Did many errands , funny how doing litle things like getting gas for the car and going to TARGET ( like Wal-Mart but without the nastynes connected to Wal-Mart ) can eat up so much time . Stopped off at a old diner for coffee and while the coffee was good I was amazed they also had a RUSH ROOM , thats a room where they have a radio on with customers listening to the far right wing yahoo (and admitted dope fiend ) RUSH LIMBAUGH whose always cheering on little georgey and saying all kinds of nonsense like the Democrats like bin laden , we're actually winning in Iraq ,and women should stay at home :roll: There were about 10 people all white in it with most amening what the clown prince of the right wing was saying ( I didn't come up with that term , hard it from a real funny guy named Al Frankin on tv) and being angry at al them " dam liberals " for ruining everything . I may only have a high school education but do know most of what LIMBAUGH was saying is wrong .Those people though thought they had heard the solemn truth from some kind of genius . Wonder if you put the civil rights con man Al "The Charleton " Sharpton on they wud all soon be believing him ? After all there's a old saying back in the hills that goes " A empty head is like a empty bucket , you can fill it with anything " :
: When one 50'ish guy started talking to me thinking I agreed with him about RUSH saying having a minimum wage is communistical I knew it was time to book ................ :
:Met Karin at her school and we went out for dinner , with a bunch of seniors we had the low cost early bird special at a family restaurent by us .Then came home and while she studyed I made a fire , drank , and watched tv . Including a little bit of VINCENT on BBCAMERICA. For some reason I do like that show , he looks so depressed which I can sure identify with real easy but still wins in the end which wud be nice to always have happen .
While on errands got a call from Leslie who was more angry then upset but you could tell was still hurting . Things aren't going so good anymore in the relationship departments .Hearing her talk made me happy about deciding not to give any emotional energy to worrying about her relationships :
: .Only two weeks ago she had 3 bfs who were buying her all kinds of resents,taking her to fancy places , and giving the little hound dog all kinds of good loving .But is now down to 2 bf's with both of those relationships sure to fall apart soon even though don't think she see's it :roll: . As with her marriages ( one to a bouncer at the club where she danced at who got to be a coke head who wud beat her then to Bill who was 30 years older who also beat her and took there kid ) from Les's perspective she's the nice person being stepped on by asshole men . Doesn't consider her taste which in men which is as bad as mine was OR her own behaviour which whether she sees it or not helps cause some of the trouble .I listened and shook my head alot as she went on ...........
Les may have been bored with him but was real angry that Mark the investment guy and only mariage worthy one among the three actually dropped her .From what she said he wanted more of a comittment since he knew she was seeing other guys but not who or how many . She thought that was real unreasonable , Les thinking she should be able to ahve her cake and eat it too. The guy being at her beck and call witha car ful of money and less free to see and f u c k anyone she wants . :roll: It was also a ego thing since she craves attention from both men and women but especially men . She got real low too , talking about how she's really upset its over since she was going to get him to take her to the Caribbean next month and now the trip is off !!! Moi didn't say anything but just listened .All the time thinking while I love her what a goofy sense of entitlement she has and thinking Mark is better off now being free to find someone who wants him for himself not to satisfy her sex /relationship addict ego and bleed for presents/dinner/trips ....................
She was really and about TJ with the gangbanger who she was so excited about . He hasn't dropped her formally yet but it's obvious the end is near since the guy doesn't want a steady gf . He even came close to slapping her around the other week when they were arguing about . I wrote here how Les and TJ had a threesomse with his very kinky jubian princess lawyer which Les enjoyed , even though some of the sex sounded downright disgusting , showers should be taken in the shower :roll: . Leslie also had a threesome with the rail cop BE with a barely 18 year old dancer named Wendy Kay she works with . It all came together early last week when TJ and the jubian princess came into the club where Les works . Once there the manager gave them a private room and Les and Wendy Kay went back to give TJ and the jubian princes a good time including lap dances and face. Les liked that too and there was talk of a foursome . BUT it all blew up in Les's face when she heard from another dancer at the club on saturday how Wendy Kay was bragging about having had a very very wild threesome with with this gangbanger and real crazy woman the day before . It led to a big shouting match between Les and Wendy Kay whiich almost got both of them fired and made them enemys .Les drove over to TJ's condo on sunday and confronted him only to have him try to lie about it then when Les kept pressing the issue he got angry and shoved her across the room threatening to beat the crap out of her if she didn't shut up . Les said she broke into tears and went home . She's real upset about what she sees as him cheating and , getting roughed up , but I guess my wonderful but not too smart here friend is most worried he'll never call back .......................... :roll:
I was more open here then I was about Mark .Telling her how it may have been fun but what can you expect from a guy who sells dope to his own people ? And more to the point bringing up how he's always treated women like dirt so he's not going to change . My trump cards was saying how his sister Corvah who is our friend wud be real angry about this relationship ,how no woman has no future with this glorified punk ,and for the jillionth time if her ex finds out she's messing around with a hoodlum that is the last she'll see of her son. Only regret I didn't throw in how TJ like her last amjor gf Lise is a sociopath to bring up some unhappy memorys of pain that always comes from messing around with scum. She really didn't know what to sayto any of that , think being shocked but then got interupted by her call waiting and before leaving made some stupid comment about teaching the third bf BE who is the boss . Hope it wasn't but it probably was from one of the 2 remaining bfs/jerks .
So thats the wild but sad news about Les .She may be all sorts of great things like loyal and generous but her and relationships really don't mix . :cry: Maybe she should just take a break from
or stick to dating ................
Have to run , got to get to the analysts to face my own demons ...............
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Post by Lena » Wed Nov 29, 2006 1:08 pm
Despite a little hangover I am in a very good mood today , I saw my Xanax prescription this morning and wonder why on earth am smiling from ear to ear moi ( at least today ) needs meds for depression and anxiety ? I do but today is a good one and it's do to more then the chemicals in my brain . We got some great news yesterday that has me feeling like the weight of the world has been taken off my shoulders .Topping it all off we had a great session at the analyst . The combination of Xanax and cognitive therapy may be my green light to being a full fledged member of the human race ............
I'm not going to get cancer and lose our home and all the money we have in it .
I mentioned it earlier but the boiler that was 76 years old in our building broke and had to be replaced . Coming up with money to cover our share was bad enough but the boiler had asbestos lining which causes cancer and we had to have the whole building tested . We were terrified about getting lung cancer ( my gf being real alarmed sine she's worked in cancer wards before and knows better then most what it can do to you ) so the whole building was tested and it turned out great . Except for one fiber floating around the boiler room ( where we never go ) the building is FREE of asbestos!!! Really a great feeling learning your not risking a horrible death and losing alot of money since who wud buy a building full of poisonous asbestos fibers ?.
Almost gives you a whole new lease on life. Were both elated and then some .....................
We went out celebrating after work last nite to a fern bar full of mostly singles partying down after work . We were lucky to be joined by joined by our rail cop neighbor Steve and his his Delores who were pretty happy themselves since a career boxcar thief Steve arrested just got convicted and sentanced to 20 years ( he'll do maybe 12 yers ) as a habitual criminal .That was kind of ironic since as a kid I went to more then a few welcome home partys for relatives when they got out of the prison or the jailhouse starting with my dad and a uncle . But thats a whole other story ............. :
: And maybe when I give some thinking to the whole thing of coming from a family where almost all the men end up behind bars and partying with cops who sent someone away for a looooong time will have me laffing since I do love ironys like this :
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: Really had a good time talking and drinking all feeling very happy . Everyone in the whole place actually seemed happy too which made it all the more fun
.The guys next to us semed to really like us , maybe it was moi's dazzling personality or after when as she will often do especially after drinking my gf had one of her hands at the top of my thigh that was clearly revealed since the jean mini was so short and hiked up or ( when Steve & Delores were in the bathroom ) we took the chance to make out passionately ? . Got in at 2am more then a little
and fell into bed .Karin's still there now sleeping , do plan on going in and molesting her soon
. Should I at least wake her up before ? Maybe since I want some loving too....................
Yesterday I worked at the country club for the first time during the regular work week . Going into what a black guy I knew who cooked at another country club called the land of the MASTERS OF THE UNIVERSE where money and education along with getting your way in this world is the way it is .Actually is a real world version of the enchanted forrest ! Thought I wud be bartending but instead waitressed . The regular bartender Carlene a woman in her late 40's who is still a looker was on duty was there . It was sure interesting in more ways then one . On sundays and at special events I've worked there's a party atmosphere with all the members being in a good mood I figure since they were off and enjoying there bank . Last nite had a chance to see the place as it is most of the time .Right away you
The atmosphere wasn't as happy as on subndays and at speciale vents but was sti pretty good . Relaxation and confidence were in the air . Really is differnet from a redneck bar I worked at called THE COVE that tryed to be real sophisticated by having carpeting on the walls in the bathrooms !!! The members had that rich people's gift of being able to be low key but formal at the same time . Guess social skills like that come with money too ! Most wer all dressed p from work in clasy dark suits for all the men and most of of the women.That was kind of surprising since I didn't think to many of these women actually worked outside the home .
Learn something new everyday ! Noticed how the members and there familys could all meet and greet each other ( the woman almost always giving ech other pecks on the cheek ) in a friendly all-American way then go do there won thing whether it was dinner or drinks in the bar or library .
They had me waitressing in the bar which included taking drinks into the library that was full of mostly men and women all quietly drinking and reading newspapers . Had althis overstuffed leather furniture and paintings of past club presidents going baclk almost 100 years on the walls along with a huge fireplace tended this elderly black porter named Zeke who also wud park there cars . All said they'd have the usual not noticing I was new ( to those people all us peons are the same and ofcourse automatically know what they mean/want :
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Later worked in the dining room during dinner .That was prety nice too, beamed celings and accentds like a few antiques and plants along with another firepplace . Worked with the 40 something Mrs .Strauss who is there sundays , a real rich people worshiper whose alwaysbring everyone to tears bragging about her somn who goes to the anyone can get in community college like he's a genius ( I've met him and he is NO genius thats for certain but I do think a possible captain for the US Olympic Dork team :
: ) and May Wah the 27 year old Chinesse immigrant who they all love . Goes to law school but works there full time and at another place translating ,one of life's winners : pretty , smart ,and the kind of person everyone ( or almost everyone ) takes too . You really could get to feeling bad about yourself and get very angry at a born winner like her .But what the hell, I can't be her and am more then a little proud of myself for just being alive after all I have had done to me and done to myself .
.The people at all her tables were very nice to her and I noticed left more then the usual green paper when done .The richies had there own way of eating : real healthy , didn't see too much fryed or fatty food . not huge portions like they could aford , and they ate slooooowly . Drinking was the same , no one seemed to have more then one mixed
or two glasses of wine . they all drank sloowly too, unlike alcoholic moi who gulps down any and all alcohol put in front of her. :oops: A few memebrs noticed me which felt good , not that I am some rich people worshipper like Mrs . Strauss or the asswipe restaurent manager Sig Reynolds happy the holy ones had taken notice of me but just nice to have someone remember you . Although at two tables I was called "that champagne girl from sundays " ............... :roll: :
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Although the members were good enough ( even Mr. Molesta who was horrified I didn't know what he likes to
, it was a Pink Lady favored by women disguised in a whisky glass so now I understand why he didn't want to say it among his fellow richies :
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: ) coldn't say the same about Mrs . strauss who made a nasty comment about May Wah being a Chinesse and also the restaurent manager Sig Reynolds who really is a kis-up/kicj down kind of guy .A real rich people worshipper he was falling all over any member he talked too , can't belive all of them were so naive they fell for it . But atthe same time loves throwing his weighta round with the retaurent staff incluing swearing at the illegals working inthe kitchemn and making a real mean May Wah joke to that awful Mrs . Strauss . :roll: Thats not just nasty but stupid , if tit came down to him or May Wah think the club manager ( who they call the colonel since he was a coonel inthe army ) wud back May Wah .............
But then gain the good outweighed the bad . Loved getting a chance to talk to the popular May Wah and she is a real good person . No phony or careerist , just working hard to get ahead with no time for fools . Really has a amazing life story , her dad was in prison back in China but for politics then they got out going to Hong Kong then a cousin brought them here. Like me she's had to work for everything she has but was lucky enough to escape looking tired like I do most of the time :cry: . Goes to the same law school as my friend Bob at work to but doesn't know him . Really amazing family , her sister is going to med schol and a brother is at a fancy east coast college .Carlene in the bar was pretty special too.A very freindly people person and a fellow hillbilly but she's from s.e Virginia. Carlene's a single mom with a 17 year old daughter who also works at the club . She works at the club 4 nites a week and has a day job at the post office too . Although in her late 40's and a grandmother she's real youthful with tons of energy . Doesn't like Sig Reynolds or Mrs . Strauss either .
The members like her too.
Today I am dresing happy .. dark green henley , black mini , suntan pantyhose ,and the new black flats with pointy toes . At work probably the penguin suit and orthies , won't matter since my boss told me on the phone we're at 33% tonite , down from the usual 65% this time of the week .....................
Have to go wake up Karin to have sex and I do feel a little wild this morning ..................... :
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Post by Lena » Thu Nov 30, 2006 3:24 pm
245 hits here in the last 24 hours ! I am so grateful .
really am thinking of getting a web host and starting Lena.com . .People could read my comments and I'd put up nude photos of myself with bf's and gf's going back to when I was 13 , graphical posts about sexual experiences , and ,my ideas about social issues and important stuff . Have a guest's section too . The sex storys of some of my friends like Leslie and Ronnie Raye along with cocktail waitress Noreen from work wud set the net on fire and probably get me indicted or hung in effagy all over the south ! Better not , I'd probably wind up having to hide out with Salmon Rushdie before it was all over! :
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Yesterday went mostly allright especially the first part before work . After finishing posting here went in and molested my Bleet which she loved .
That pleasure bond is really something isn't it ? :
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: . I f u c k e d her with it once then she f u c k e d me with it . Nice !!! Must say though her mouth can be a wonder too...............
Did some errands and thinking about our sexscapade had me giggling at the mall where there doing some building so to have more fun and to in my own way reward the construction workers I both bent over showing and wiggling my booty to them . Leading to a round of much welcomed applause and cheers from the guys . :
:I followed it up by doing the old pull - up the pantyhose trick going from the ankles to the top of the thigh on both legs .Even saw one guy becoming a acrobat bending and craining to see if I was wearing undies , which I wasn't ! :
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also had them cheering . I do so like getting attention and being kind to my fellow humans all at the same time .
Work turned out good , made pretty good tips. At first it was real slow since the hotel had a low occupancy rate and at this time of year we don't get the singles crowd or business partys . Sat looking at cocktail waitress Noreen who while gorgeous is a real sociopath . She's marrying a soldier to be able to stay in America and also urging him to volunteer for combat so she can both get his combat pay and be able to look for a better guy which for her is someone with the big bank . I don't even want to think if she is thinking about how to spend his army life insurance in case he doesn't make it back . :x I bet ideally her perfect man wud not just be rich but also real old or sick too since the skank could inherit it all . :roll: :
: We don't talk much , I'm not useful enough to her and to be honest I was so much like her in the selfishness department I worry I'd start acting that way again . Too many times in my life it's been " monkey see , monkey do " :oops: We did get hit by two and a half rushes though which had us both reallly moving . Was funny when the tv showed little georgey several of the customers all white 30-40'ish males who are his biggest suporters actually boo the boob-in-chief :
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. Even though we were swamped at points Noreen being Noreen though still found time to make a date to meet one of the customers when she clocked out at 2130. :roll:
Seeing Noreen being such a total Bleet got me thinking about the woman I know .Do deal with all kinds of woman everyday from the customers , staff , and guests . Not to mention store clerks and women I see on the street . Know too everyone has both good and bad in them . Must say though that as of today two kind stand out with me shaking my head at the big differences . The first and most interesting to all the p***s people reading this are the women who despite having good points are behaving badly and the ones I know are really good at that ! :roll: They hurt themselves and also others .There others to who while not perfect are really trying to be good people and in there own way helping make the world a better place just by that trying .Makes them really beautiful to me .
The bad girls are my best friend Leslie , cocktail waitress Noreen ofcourse and Mrs .Strauss at the country club . Poor Les is really back sliding , not a year ago she decided to grow up and go to school to be a x-ray technician with the hope of also getting a rich doctor :
: . She only went back to working at a so-called gentleman's club( they should call them horniness clubs :
: ) to make money . Loves her son to death too. But I guess she's been sidetracked , going back to getting over by being so pretty and sociable like she was doing at 13 ( she was such a hottie at 13 she had 20 year old guys chasing after her :
: ) but ending up getting involved with one jerk after another ( starting with that ' ho Lise up to TJ the gangbanger ) and ends up abused and hurt . She drove off the one guy Mark who was marriage material too. She should know better too since her auntie Jewel was the same way and ended up getting ruined . Not even 40 yet she's burned out ( the poor woman looks like a dryed up prune ) from too many bad men , the bottle , and selfishness. It could get even worse for les since if her ex learned about anything from the " tricks" she and Lise were doing to dating a gangbanger I know for a fact he'd get The court to take awy Le's 4 hours a week wth her son that wud kill her. :roll: Noreen is a conniver only out for herself . I guess having a bf a week and trying to bleed them dry for presents and fun times was allright . Everyone got something out of it ! But this thing with the marrying a soldier to stay in America is disgusting . All the worse him encouraging the dope to go off to war so she can get his combat pay and fish for someone better. :x BTW her bridal shower is saturday and she's being a real gift piggy , inviting about every woman who works at the hotel even though she hardly knows any and will not be inviting them to the ceremony .I'll get her a present at either a garage sale or the dollar store. :
: Finnally realy didn't like Mrs . Straus being so racist about the Chinesse woman May Wah . Do understand how frustrating it is to see foreigners come here and do better then native born Americans.But going back to when I was a kid hearing a granddaddy talk about how bad the Catholics are bigotry has always seemed real ugly and foreigners coming here and getting ahead is common here in America. A home and opportunity for all
. Maybe it's since she's not white Mrs .Strauss is so mad at May Wah but thats pretty stupid too. Do think if she lived in China Mrs .Strauss wudn't want people being racist to her ! Besides May Wah is nice. Honorable mention must go to the jubian princess and the stripper Wendy Kay my friend Leslie has been fooling around with along with Dr.Thiel at my gf's hospital who I haven't mentioned here but who treats the nurses like crap and is sleeping with a member of the board of directors to be able to always get her way at work . :x
On a happier note though do stand in awe of the Rosa Parks types I know .Mentioned the other day my old neighbor Bertniece Simms , she may have seen me as the devil girl tempting her nephews and a honkie on top of it but have to hand it to her the way she helped raise her brother-in-laws kids. BTW , it'd probably kill the old girl knowing I respect her . :
: Her sister- in- law my friends mom Maybelle Simms along with my gf and our neighbor Marie are others .
Mrs.M . Simms was as tough as her sister -in-law ( like the time she back handed me a few times a few times when I swore and moked in there house ) but she had a real obvious loving and kind side too . She can really put you at ease just by being in the room . A real hard worker , at one point think she was working 2 ft and one pt job . Always paid attention to the kids ( and this white trash girl from down the street too :
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there grandkid kids .
My gf is another , after a disasterous marriage and bad relationship after that she made the descsion not to be a victim to male and her mom's aproval and make her own life no mater what . Talk about guts ! Works ft and has ben going to school ft also . Not easy and has taken alot of committment . the nurses and docs she works with all say Karin knocks herself out and you can count on her . What could better ?
Maybe most challenging she has to put up with moi , I pity her at times :
: marie raised safamily and after her husbands death is till keeping on with life . Does plenty of volunteer work for her church and at the senior citizens center . For awhile she was in a foster grandparents program but had to quit since her own grandkids got jealous .Can't blame them , if she was my granny or auntie I'd want someone so wonderful all for myself and not share her with strangers . :
: Like her even more snce she just built me up to Karin's folks .
Im inspired now ! Am heading out to do errands in what I call my homeless derelict look : a old white denim jacket , a fading old green T shirt too, and ripped up old old jeans . Along with nude support pantyhose ( my 11th or 12 th wear ,has to be a record ) and clogs .At work though will like a catapiller transform into a swan , being a femme fatale in the black cocktail waitress dress and black flats ...................
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Post by Lena » Fri Dec 01, 2006 1:34 pm
200 hits here yesterday !
As special
have to mention how sore but happy I felt yesterday . When I TT my gf when we were both at work she was giggling saying the same thing :
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Not much happened at work . Although occupancy rates are low we were pretty steady from about 5pm or 1700 up to 10:30pm or 2230 .Posted earleir about about a fun time I had with and several customers about a movie on tv where the hero was being hunted on a deserted island by a mad ex army major .All the customers and moi had the idea we'd seen it before then came to the conclusion that this is a stock movie plot that gets recycled and recycled some more .One man said he saw it when it was old nazi's chasing a reporter , another said it was just like a movie where indians hunted cowboys , and two guys said it was just like a movie they saw where Africans chase a big gamehunter . :
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Better mental health thru clothing ?
I think since business is down office gossip is really up these days . Am hearing alot more jibber jabber from my co-workers about each other , naturally mostly scandels and backstabbing .I've heard it all before , only the names change really .So I listen and nod but don't get all worked up like so many of my co-workers do . The ass't Housekeeping manager Marisol and her bellman bf Gilbert are big gossip topic . Everyone seems to have a story about her either blowing up at somene ( sometimes threatening to call her corporate vp father for back up , princesses always want there way ! ) or breaking down crying to get her way . Along with the intense (!!!) thing with Gilbert .Sounds like most everyone has seen them being friendly ( Bozena the polish Housekeeping woman who took the time to learn english says she came on them in a meeting room with Marisol on her knees doing something to him while Ramon in security says they've had 3 calls to break them up arguing between the two where there passion or insanity turned little things into confrontations :roll: ) No one of any race or either hourly like moi or the managers seems to like Gilbert , he's way to arrogant and confrontational . Some of my black friends say too he's bragging to them about doing a snow bird whose a big shot and using her to get a big promotion ( fat chance since with his record ) and how he also has a gf back in the 'hood who he really loves . What a dick , sad to say a few years ago since he is so good looking ( medium skinned , tall and atheltic ) I wud have been available if he'd been interested ! :oops:
Interesting day here .Am happy to say little georgey is losing more and more support from the American people . The group he had to pick to study how to get out of Iraq ( that he packed by putting his father's buddy James Baker in charge off ) came up with the unwanted idea we should get out . Most people (with the tv news saying the number is always rising ) say we should get out too. But little georgey isn't listening , him being that special kind of fool who knows nothing but thinks he knows everything is sticking with the war . Talking real tough , acting boastful , and ,coming up with all this talk about being tough and freedom yadda yadda yadda ........... :roll: Pride really does come before the fall .Like someone making trouble at work all this will do is get him in more trouble with the people including his own party :
: . Also happy to say the new said Wal-Mart sales are down which for them is a rare as it wud be finding a hen with teeth.Don't like Wal-Mart , they wrap themselves up in the American flag but almost everything they sell is made in China taking jobs away from people here and they can treat there employees real bad including fighting unions .It's also World Aids Day , all the gay guys I 've talked too seem to be doing something special . Be better to spend the government money stopping that awful disease then fighting needless wars . :x
It's raining out pretty hard which I love . May go for a long walk in the rain before work . It's relaxing and when you tell people you did something like that it's fun to see the looks on there faces .They seem to either think your wierd ( which I really am
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: May have to hurry if I am going to do that since the radio says we maybe getting snow before noon . Karin already left for school , she has 2 hours of classes then the 3 hours of lab . My hats off to her ,there's no way I could sit at a desk for that time and just forget about all that tme in a lab looking down a microscope .
We'll talk later .Fritz the cat is on the couch washing his feet while Agatha is on the window sill looking all intensely out at the morning rush hour traffic . Wonder if she keeps a eye out for specific cars and people every day ?Am very very happy I don't have to be custody monitor and in doing so have to deal with my friend Leslie's idiocy . Baby Grady has a cold so we'll have to wait till next wek when he's better . When Les called this morning I could hear the rail cop BE in the background , they may be breaking up but being a typical p***s person BE's getting as much as he can before the final good-bye :x .Then again Les being Les she's loving every second of the attention and his male body . :roll:
Today in a heavy black turtleneck sweater from the MARIYN KING COLLECTION also jean skirt , nude support pantyhose ( my 13th wear from these today , maybe I should e-mail HANES in the hope of doing a testimonial add and getting a prize ? :
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Post by Lena » Sat Dec 02, 2006 1:53 pm
Am running late this morning so I'll have to post in about 6 hours when I'm at work . Am in a back leotard , suntan pantyhose ,jeans , and clogs .At work the penguin suit and orthies..................
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